boring boring boring.

for the first time in my life im complaining about having nothing to do. usually im quite content sitting and staring into space and basically doing nothing. but at work, i will feel sleepy and sleeping is a big no no in the office, ESP if u are a temp. it will most probably get me fired...hahas. but then again, im blogging now so if anyone finds out, im doomed as well. at least im doing smth hahas.

anyway found something from my sec sch days last night. since im blogging from my phone i can upload e pic but yeah hahas upload it some other time. it was a totally ridiculous convo between me and xuan and sughan hahahas we even wrote a more ridiculous story at the back. i kept laughing when i see it coz it just brings back all e memories sitting in that island of five. what i wouldnt give to go back to those days haiz. :/

i think im a very sentimental person. i keep ALL e notes and messages and cards and handmade gofts my friends gave me, coz i treasure them more than material gifts. oh i may look materialistic and i dun deny i am, but i really love handwritten notes and things like that. they are so pretty really :) and i like to live in the past, where everything is all sunshine and rainbows with freaking unicorns prancing abt. i dun think ive changed as i grow up, more cunning and less naive maybe, but those around me have changed so much i only know the surface of them thats all. so i dun really know my friends and thats sad. really sad.

okay enough of the sad stuff. today started of horribly. i thought i never bring my earpiece(i found them later), which i cant live without. then i had to run to catch the bloody bus coz it reached early today. its like a freaking 500m and i havent ran in a long time and i was wearing flats! how the hell was i supposed to run?! haiz but im still proud to say despite having not run in a long time i was still pretty fast :D in fact i was the first to reach! hahas.

i was sweating like a pig, something that hasnt happen for a loooooong time LOL. but on e bus it was much better hahas. And my big boss actually came to sit the company trnasport with us today! gosh he have his own fancy car but still came to sit on e bus haha everyone was shocked :O and he chose a seat beside me! i cant sleep with ease lol later he scold me i die HAHAS. and here i am again, lounging in my chair with nothing to do haiz. i can stay awake if i munch on smth, but i must curb my snacking habit. i really cannot grow any fatter im not exaggerating. people

if u noe how to get rid of fats around the belly like love handles please please tell me :/ im damn depressed about my size.

i always get hyper when i reach home after work. last time, i unleashed my craziness in school so when i reach home im more or less sane hahas. but now im as quiet as a mouse in office and thus i have to release my madness when i rch home xD hahas.

having dinner with my grandparents today~ hope its good food then i can feast. :) ahhhhhhh no no no i must stop shovelling food into my mouth. mouth pls close and dun open so much!

okiedokie, shall end here. im waiting to go to lunch. i look forward to lunch time and going home the most at work :) it isnt that work isnt fun coz it is, its just i hate the blank periods of time where i have absolutely nothing to do.

alrighty sayonara! im hungry :(

LONELY!

alrighty im back hahahas. i always seem to be blogging whenever im at work lols. because there is nothing to do seriously. i wait and wait and wait and nothing comes in! ohwell. its part of what i hate and like about my job. and i think my job is pretty awesome. the company is a huge company globally and i think i learnt quite alot abt how the company purchase and sell stuff. it had better be useful in whatever occupation i end up in. :) plus, the people are nice generally. at the very least, i like going to work. hahas. im happy at work, not like some people who hate their jobs. although the plant itself is quite empty coz its a new building. :/ i do data entry and do purchase order, slaes order, quotation blah blah blah hahas. its a useful thing to put on my resume :)

best of all, i only need to apend money on food! theres company transport so i just walk from my house to bukit batok every morning to take and walk back after work! i get to slim down and save money at the same time! awesome isnt it? xD cant wait till i get my first pay, which is due day after tmr i think heh heh then i can go shopping! :) whee~

but the sad thing is, as the title suggest, im lonely at work :( ive nvr done anything without dar before so the feeling is kinda empty (not counting jc of course)... i missed seeing her frequently LOL esp since i saw her almost all the time last yr! hahas. and no one sms me or anything! :( even when im at home :( haiz. forever alone LOL.

been thinking about getting results lately. and for the first time, im actually terrified about my results. unlike Os, where i was pretty confident, this time is totally different. i have a nasty feeling abt failing it and not being accepted anywhr its quite nerve-wreaking, :/ i dun need them to be all As, thats asking too much considering how bad i did for prelims, but i dun want then to fall below C either :( life sucks. work is way better than school in this aspect.

well anyway, looking forward to the weekend! gonna attend the moe scholarship talk with yeeting then we are going shopping hahas. yay! then maybe i can finally get my bag hahas :D

so yupp, waiting for reply from other ppl to plan outings! or maybe just go out hahas, not much need to plan anything hahas. okay im done talking now!

hafta go back to work! maybe i will blog when i get home again! :) hahas. byeeeeeeeee~

well hello. im gonna revive this blog. its been a long time since i blogged anything. ohwell lets see how long before i get bored of it again. a disclaimer: this blog is for me to rant. and if anything upsets anybody, its ur own fault for reading it.

2012 has come. im one year older supposedly, but ive ncver wanted to go back to the past as much as i do now. in the past, lets just say things were leas complicated, we were much much closer, we tell everything to each other. now, what a different story. we dun even sms, let aloone talk. meeting you is like striking lottery, because u seem so reluctant to be the friend u once were. so what i really want to ask is, what happened to us? is it i think too much that we are drifting apart when we were once inseperable like a package deal, or are we really becoming strangers we once said we nvr will be. come to think of it, even though we said we are best friends, we dun noe everything there is to know about each other do we? sometimes im envious of what my other friends have with their best friends.

i cant deny that yes we do not have the time anymore to see each other so often, or talk so often, but an sms everynow and then is enough. i may be clingy, but i like to think its because i care abt my friend. everytime im the one to initiate the contact, but the response is lukewarm to the point of cold. then i will back off, because i dun wan to get pissed again in frustration. this happens all the time now. wanna go out, i asked. no, u reply. why not? theres no reply. am i wrong to feel frustrated? here i am trying to make u happy, but in the end i got pissed instead. this is wrong. i mean we are the closest of friends arent we? or was i thinking too much for the past few years again?

if you dun tell me whats wrong, then i cant do anything cant i? ive always given in to your requests, so i really cant see where did i do wrong unless U TELL ME. then we can solve things together. u may think i cant handle u when u get mad, but you din even give me a chance to try. unless u dun want it of course. then our friendship is abit superficial isnt it? supposed to be 同甘共苦 de friends but we dun share the 苦.

if u are reading this, then please tell me what happend and dun blow up at me. again. i really want to go back to how we were in the past instead of u ignoring me and i getting pissed off at u everytime. yes i noe friends will quarrel and argue and whatever, its what keep the friendship alive, but we are kinda extreme dont u think.

well thats enough for now. have to get back to work. blog later tonight.

TODAY WAS FUN!!! xD! haha. although thrs injuiries, good thing its not too serious. (:
and the water, to my surprise, is a welcome addition. its freaking hot. lols.

favorite station is the one with plenty of water...the reversal game! haha. since we were bare footed, we 'bathed' our feet with water to keep out the heat lols. thrs this station which has the flour water combination...>< look like some 50 yr old woman after the OGLS put flour on my head luhhs.-.-.

took grp fotos too. (:

and i shldnt have ran ytd!!! having serious muscles ache now luhh. >.<
and there is inter house session tmr....double sianz. more running. ): but, should be fun. (: lols.

I MISS WATCHING YOUTUBE EVERY DAY.

hmm. the 1st day went by horribly. =s haiz. why?

i only utter 3 whole sentences the whole day.
1. 'can i borrow your pen? thanks.'
2. 'hey want to exchange phone no?'
3. 'im hiangngee from commonwealth and i was in girl guides.'

how PATHETIC is tht? throughout the whole day i only made one friend. ): super sian. i mean, im nt anti-social or anything but they all have their own friend in the OG le. damn paiseh to just butt in...

i sincerely hope tmr will be better. else im really gonna suffer in nj. DAMN.
soooo not looking forward to the mass dance or the station games. my limbs are never co-ordinated, and im just gonna embarass myself during the station games. -.-

haiz. just hope tht i can come out in one piece...

ALRIGHT. i love my new skin. (: they all look so cute dont they? xD

anw, since its the start of a new year, i thought my blog shld get a new start too. and it will be filled with my life in NJC. =S. brr, just thinking about it is enough to make me puke.

cant watch youtube as and when i wish, which SERIOUSLY sucks. BIG TIME.
another thing? orientation lasts a WEEK. DAMN.

ok random-ing here...

IM GONNA MISS YOU PPL. why is it nobody goes to the same sch as me? well except for karthik and yangqin anw. and i just realise, i haven spoken a SINGLE WORD to yangqin since we met TWO years ago. -.- pathetic sia. im going to die in the sch out of loneliness!!! ):

meeting the girls for lunch at jp on saturday. YAY-ness! (:

oh since sch is starting, back to the sleep by 9 routine...double sian. AND, to my horror, i have no idea how to get home tmr. -.-

have to go 'sleep' alr. all the best guys. dont die in the new sch. (:

alright. im back to once again revive my dead blog. to be honest, i dun feel like blogging anymore as im LAZY. cant bring myself to do it haha. anyway, rare chance i wanted to blog...so here goes.

saw the band's syf performance today...not bad luhh. i just feel that its nt up to gold standard yet. butbut...its still more than i could do by a billion times. soooo....hurray for band!! xD

lessons were a blur generally. was just listening.staring into space.listening.staring into space. and that continues for the whole day. haha. not to mention once again im back to staring by someone. haiz.

went for cca today. got scolded for being slack. i mean hello!!! sec4s dont need to do anything xcept to look at what the juniors were doing. not to mention my leg is INJUIRED. which part of injuired do they not understand? and its bad enough we were forced to go to the bomb shelter tmr at an ungodly hour of 9am. waste my whole day away when i could have used the time to study for the geog test nxt week. rawr.

stress is building up so fast. sometimes i just want to break loose and just start crying. but hey. i dun cry so easily. maybe wait till the Os are just a month away. i will go hysterical. xD

hmmm. nothing to say liao. back to chionging my homework. (:

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