a child is all i want to be

2012-01-26T13:57:00.002+08:00

well hello. im gonna revive this blog. its been a long time since i blogged anything. ohwell lets see how long before i get bored of it again. a disclaimer: this blog is for me to rant. and if anything upsets anybody, its ur own fault for reading it.

2012 has come. im one year older supposedly, but ive ncver wanted to go back to the past as much as i do now. in the past, lets just say things were leas complicated, we were much much closer, we tell everything to each other. now, what a different story. we dun even sms, let aloone talk. meeting you is like striking lottery, because u seem so reluctant to be the friend u once were. so what i really want to ask is, what happened to us? is it i think too much that we are drifting apart when we were once inseperable like a package deal, or are we really becoming strangers we once said we nvr will be. come to think of it, even though we said we are best friends, we dun noe everything there is to know about each other do we? sometimes im envious of what my other friends have with their best friends.

i cant deny that yes we do not have the time anymore to see each other so often, or talk so often, but an sms everynow and then is enough. i may be clingy, but i like to think its because i care abt my friend. everytime im the one to initiate the contact, but the response is lukewarm to the point of cold. then i will back off, because i dun wan to get pissed again in frustration. this happens all the time now. wanna go out, i asked. no, u reply. why not? theres no reply. am i wrong to feel frustrated? here i am trying to make u happy, but in the end i got pissed instead. this is wrong. i mean we are the closest of friends arent we? or was i thinking too much for the past few years again?

if you dun tell me whats wrong, then i cant do anything cant i? ive always given in to your requests, so i really cant see where did i do wrong unless U TELL ME. then we can solve things together. u may think i cant handle u when u get mad, but you din even give me a chance to try. unless u dun want it of course. then our friendship is abit superficial isnt it? supposed to be 同甘共苦 de friends but we dun share the 苦.

if u are reading this, then please tell me what happend and dun blow up at me. again. i really want to go back to how we were in the past instead of u ignoring me and i getting pissed off at u everytime. yes i noe friends will quarrel and argue and whatever, its what keep the friendship alive, but we are kinda extreme dont u think.

well thats enough for now. have to get back to work. blog later tonight.

2010-02-01T19:54:00.002+08:00

TODAY WAS FUN!!! xD! haha. although thrs injuiries, good thing its not too serious. (:
and the water, to my surprise, is a welcome addition. its freaking hot. lols.

favorite station is the one with plenty of water...the reversal game! haha. since we were bare footed, we 'bathed' our feet with water to keep out the heat lols. thrs this station which has the flour water combination...>< look like some 50 yr old woman after the OGLS put flour on my head luhhs.-.-.

took grp fotos too. (:

and i shldnt have ran ytd!!! having serious muscles ache now luhh. >.<
and there is inter house session tmr....double sianz. more running. ): but, should be fun. (: lols.

I MISS WATCHING YOUTUBE EVERY DAY.

2010-01-28T19:36:00.002+08:00

hmm. the 1st day went by horribly. =s haiz. why?

i only utter 3 whole sentences the whole day.
1. 'can i borrow your pen? thanks.'
2. 'hey want to exchange phone no?'
3. 'im hiangngee from commonwealth and i was in girl guides.'

how PATHETIC is tht? throughout the whole day i only made one friend. ): super sian. i mean, im nt anti-social or anything but they all have their own friend in the OG le. damn paiseh to just butt in...

i sincerely hope tmr will be better. else im really gonna suffer in nj. DAMN.
soooo not looking forward to the mass dance or the station games. my limbs are never co-ordinated, and im just gonna embarass myself during the station games. -.-

haiz. just hope tht i can come out in one piece...

2010-01-27T20:58:00.002+08:00

ALRIGHT. i love my new skin. (: they all look so cute dont they? xD

anw, since its the start of a new year, i thought my blog shld get a new start too. and it will be filled with my life in NJC. =S. brr, just thinking about it is enough to make me puke.

cant watch youtube as and when i wish, which SERIOUSLY sucks. BIG TIME.
another thing? orientation lasts a WEEK. DAMN.

ok random-ing here...

IM GONNA MISS YOU PPL. why is it nobody goes to the same sch as me? well except for karthik and yangqin anw. and i just realise, i haven spoken a SINGLE WORD to yangqin since we met TWO years ago. -.- pathetic sia. im going to die in the sch out of loneliness!!! ):

meeting the girls for lunch at jp on saturday. YAY-ness! (:

oh since sch is starting, back to the sleep by 9 routine...double sian. AND, to my horror, i have no idea how to get home tmr. -.-

have to go 'sleep' alr. all the best guys. dont die in the new sch. (:

2009-04-03T20:54:00.002+08:00

alright. im back to once again revive my dead blog. to be honest, i dun feel like blogging anymore as im LAZY. cant bring myself to do it haha. anyway, rare chance i wanted to blog...so here goes.

saw the band's syf performance today...not bad luhh. i just feel that its nt up to gold standard yet. butbut...its still more than i could do by a billion times. soooo....hurray for band!! xD

lessons were a blur generally. was just listening.staring into space.listening.staring into space. and that continues for the whole day. haha. not to mention once again im back to staring by someone. haiz.

went for cca today. got scolded for being slack. i mean hello!!! sec4s dont need to do anything xcept to look at what the juniors were doing. not to mention my leg is INJUIRED. which part of injuired do they not understand? and its bad enough we were forced to go to the bomb shelter tmr at an ungodly hour of 9am. waste my whole day away when i could have used the time to study for the geog test nxt week. rawr.

stress is building up so fast. sometimes i just want to break loose and just start crying. but hey. i dun cry so easily. maybe wait till the Os are just a month away. i will go hysterical. xD

hmmm. nothing to say liao. back to chionging my homework. (:

有时候真的很想问，想从你的眼神，知道我有没有份...

2009-03-09T19:44:00.002+08:00

ohman. i just died at the maths paper. rawr. i hope its good enough to beat them all. (: im damn competitive i know. xD
as for the weather..it just abt freeze me to death manz. i was like practically shivering at the bus stop..BRRRRR. haha. ohwell, at least the rain wasnt too heavy..

now i need to do the CH SBQ..sianz. i dunno how to do sia. haiz. and i need to finish off cumulative frequency distribuition. cant see whr i can find the time to do them all. guess i just have to chiong like siao. (:

feeling so damn emo these few days..ever since a couple of weeks ago. haha no one knows the reason. only i do. but im nt sure of it myself.....

u healed the wounds he made in my heart. and u tore them wide open once again.
and he keeps taking out the feelings i thought i had buried deep inside...

guess im a sucker for sensitive guys huh. sucks.

2009-03-01T16:31:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEIXUAN! (:

lols. tried to send her the message at 7.10, in the end forgotten all abt it...i was 8 mins late. hehe. ohwell. another person disappeared over to the sixteen side...and huimin's gonna be thr too in a few more days!!! im soo lonely..haha.

yesterday

went to je mrt to do cip..collected the tins den went to boon lay mrt with weixuan,sinjoo,huimin,pon,jacky,yimeng and xianyu. did quite well for the 1st couple of hours. den i slacked totally at the end...too tired from all the standing...lols. went back to je to return the tins..we did quite well luh. haha.

changed to go to bugis to sort of like celebrate weixuan's birthday..and we changed faster than the boys. xD haha. mrt-ed to bugis...spent ages deciding where to have dinner..PASTAMANIA! haha. im CRAZY abt it luhh. woots! (:

den we took neoprints with the guys haha. we practically pushed them into the shop..(: den had to go home else i will get beheaded..so off we went luhh. spent the time on the mrt bluetooth-ing the pictures from each other's fone lols. bus-ed home with pon..it was raining when i got home..

today

woke up early again to go running and badminton.. i think i ran arnd 3km today haha. siao lor, summore so soon after x-country.haha.den went back to the sports hall...played doubles with my sister, mum and aunt. and we beat them 15-7 i think! haha! we rock sis. (:

was so dead tired when i came home i fell asleep on the floor..lols. den after lunch i slept again until now..and i still want to sleep! a true garfield huh. (: haha. cant luhh. need to study for physics. else im gonna fail again. which im determined it shall not happen. i mean, im aiming for an A1 in physics ok(:

alrights den. study time. (:

just what am i waiting for? its nvr gonna happen. we are not even considered friends..are we?

2009-02-26T20:12:00.002+08:00

i sooo screwed up my geog...): haiz. ohwell. hope for the best then..lols

today is SUGHAN'S birthday!!!! (: hehe. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUGHAN! lols! the four of us gave him a gigantic pen filled with pandas! it was so ridiculous haha. and when kokila walked past his table, she was like giving sughan the "look"...LOLS. we like laugh non-stop sia. den when maths lesson came, we sang the birthday song for him,and we wanted him to show it to the whole class but din happen lols. but david was very fascinated by it haha. (: see? we knew that the pen was meant for sughan when we saw it. lols.

and we have the fire drill crap.it was ok at first..but they made us stay at the field under the bloody sun for so long that we nearly got heatstroke can? -.- and its all because of a delivery woman....screw u man.at least we get to miss geog and some of CH. lols.

i also realised im WAAAY too behind on the maths rev exercises..need to chiong them this weekend on top of studying for phys. rawr. i hate sec4 life...

getting really gan chiong now...i still haven got weixuan's present yet...AHHHH. maybe i will get it tmr after cross country. the problem is asking someone to go with me..sianz.

2009-02-20T19:30:00.003+08:00

cant believe the amount of homework i got today! rawr. need to chiong liao. else tmr also cannot do anything..

and today's thinking day we got laughed at luhh. but i prefer to think that we made a spectucular exit, right? be optimistic people! and we did well for the rest right? so its wasnt a complete disaster. better than last yr anyway. (:

ohwell. tmr still need to go to the kallang indoor stadium from 9.30 to 5.30 lehh!!! die lerh la. dunnid do hw liao. im so deeeeaaaadddd. lols. btr chiong like hell ltr. but i dun feel like doing lehhs. sianzz.

and, chinese lesson is REALLY a sleeping pill. instant effect. i was like dozing off after 5 mins. and there's TWO hours of it. din even try to keep my eyelids open, coz..even if i tried, it will still close immediately anyway. lols. tad has gotta show how tired i am.

so yupp. im done. homework time!!! ):

2009-02-16T16:08:00.002+08:00

MY 101th POST!!!

alright man! haha. like very little lehhs. tsk tsk. lols blame myself luhh.

anw, first day back to sch after the immensely long break was soooo depressing. we like started off the week with a CHEMISTRY class test, which i completely screwed up. ): and..if that's nt enuf, i recieved my physics class test which i FLUNKED. okok, i din fail...but i din pass with flying colours. ): hey, everyone's version of "flunk" is different ok???

bus-ed home on 176. im damn suay today lar. there was one 176 coming towards the bus stop and it just zoomed by without even stopping! like, wtf. so i waited another 15 mins before another one came...

ok just got scared to death by the thunder just now...so damn LOUD can...

there's eng tmr...i think. lols. hope she wont call us up to present on that project work thats like history. i even forgotten what topic we doing lols.

GUIDES tmr...so sian. hope to hell we get released early...and the thinking day in sch is on friday..the day we all malu ourselves in front of the whole entire school. ohwell, lets just pull our baret down somemore in shame then. what pisses me off is how many times we need to wear our uniforms this wk. friday, saturday and maybe even wednesday. RAWR.

i dont get it. im so confused right now. friends or more than friends? and its not the person who gave me that flower. -.-

2009-02-15T19:46:00.002+08:00

I AM BACK TO REVIVE MY BLOG!!! :)

heh heh. im so hyper right now. for no particular reasons. i CHANGED my blogskin again. woots. nice? how i hope its true anw. haha.

ohyeah. the sec4 camp!! nice nice. esp the 2nd day. I SO LOVE MY CLASS. we rock. (: hehe. but im so accident-prone that i fell down TWO times. oops! anw, it really gave me a chance to bond somemore with my class. its such a nice feeling to know people better. haha.

and and, the thinking day rehearsal ytd was ok as well. i managed to remember the dance steps! haha! and it was quite fast, considering there's alot of schs involved. after the rehearsal, mrt-ed to bugis with HUIFANG! haha. shopped for a while. got my sister's wallet. burned a very big hole in my own wallet. im so broke...keke. anw, got bored of bugis, went to marina square...

and my god, we GOSSIPED for 45 mins. what an amazing feat, za bor. lets do it again sometime soon yeahh? LOLS. love ya babe. shall upload the photos nxt time. (:

i need applause. i chiong my hw after my shopping trip with huifang. finished them le!!! (: so now am currently mugging for tmr's chem test on speed of reaction..yuppx. i think im siao to be so happy abt it. but cant help it you noe. i get very happy these days.

and, applause again pls. (: i woke up at 6.15am again this morning to EXERCISE. first badminton, then 3 km of continuous running, then swimming. being able to sweat...that feeling feels GREAT.

soooo..yuppx. a good enuf post for a comeback yeahh? alrighty then, off i go to study! (:

2009-01-16T21:03:00.002+08:00

hmm. someone said i very long never update lerhhs. so here i am lor.
i got complaining to do sia.
i have to do 2 presentations on the same day. sucks like hell. one is in class, the other is in front of the whole school. im alr dying in front of the class, how am i going to stand on the stage and bloody present?! im so dead...

reached home damn late. ate dinner and read book until forgot to go bathe. -.-
just finished bathing......

lols. nth to say liao.

2009-01-11T14:02:00.003+08:00

i think i have to be really bored to post on my blog for the 2nd time in a day...

and and, i finished the CH homework. din know i had that in me siahh. (:
feeling damn tired...but dun feel like taking a nap, how weird is that? guess im waiting for something to happen...

supposed to go out to get my ma's birthday present...but my lazy sister changes her mind...so it still remains undecided..

hoping to go out though, im bored stuck at home. bleah.

2009-01-11T10:41:00.002+08:00

i LOVE running. (: its does make me happy, even if its for a short while. after that, back to the original state...

I NEED TO GO LOSE THE FATS. i cant believe i let myself grow so FAT. and im not talking about my limbs.

AND, i am not NORMAL. good to know eh?

2009-01-04T15:51:00.002+08:00

i realised that S.H.E's 恋人未满 lyrics is the situation i find myself in right now. at least for the first part anyway. as for the second, depends not on me...

Song: 恋人未满
Artist：S.H.E

為什麼只和你能聊一整夜為什麼才道別就又想再見面
在朋友裡面就數你最特別總讓我覺得很親很貼
為什麼你在意誰陪我逛街為什麼你擔心誰對我放電
你說你對我比別人多一些卻又不說是多哪一些

友達以上戀人未滿
甜蜜心煩愉悅混亂
我們以後会变怎样我迫不及待想知道答案

再靠近一點點就讓你牽手
再勇敢一點點我就跟你走
你還等什麼時間已經不多
再下去只好只做朋友

再向前一點點我就跟你碰頭
再衝動一點點我就不閃躲
不過三個字別猶豫這麼久
只要你說出口你就能擁有我

為什麼你寂寞只想要我陪
為什麼我難過只肯讓你安慰
我們心裡面明明都有感覺
為什麼不敢面對
我不相信都動了感情卻到不了
愛情那麼貼心卻進不了
心底你能不能快一點決定
對我說我愛你

ok. gotta go do my physics hw now.....

it just wasnt meant to be.

2009-01-01T11:14:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!! :)
haha. im so hyper now. anw, its the start of a new year and hope all your wishes come true in 2009!
2008 has been an okay sort of year i guess. although i din quite get the results i wanted, its still passable. haha. must work harder next yr. i want to get below 10 points for my 'O' levels. sounds impossible hor? lols. oh and i got another wish. stop being so vulgar, za bor. HAHA. thats me.

i finished my geog assignment yesterday!!! i rock sia. so hard to do... hope i can get good marks for it. hehe.

went sinjoo's hse to finalise the eng projects. i was the earliest again. haiz. even though im late, im still early. rawr. nvm. mostly crap about for a few hrs, den her mum and dad treat us lunch. CHICKEN RICE. i am no big fan of chicken rice, but still, its okok la. haha.
went popular ltr to buy stuff, den bused home. slacked arnd, watched tv....and den cant take it anymore...SLEEPING TIME!! resulting in the early smses. haha.

woke up so early in the new year can? 6.15 lehhs. such an ungodly hour to wake up. played continuous 2 hours of badminton. my arm want to break liao....sure kena ache tmr.
den im here! blogging crap. lols.

i still havent finish all the hw leh. but but, its only the 2 amaths paper and the trigo revision ws and the binomial assignment 3 and 4, which i dunno how to do. sooo, its still okay horh? i mean, i finished the rest of my holiday hw. (:

2008-12-18T16:05:00.002+08:00

argh. the geog assignment is so hard to do luh. still need to do research, go thru the mark scheme blah blah blah. haiz. ohwell, at least i dun need to sit for the re-test. :)

went to class bbq ytd. its okay lah. better than last yr's anyway. i paid $5 for a stick of satay last yr luh. stupid sia. lols.went to meet huifang and yimeng at jp for lunch b4 going to east coast. but we mostly shopped instead of eat. heh heh. :)

den we took mrt to bedok. waited for yeemun den we took 197 to east coast park. the people we asked led us in the wrong direction lah, so we walked one whole round to where we came from.
that stupid auntie point the wrong bloody way. sianz. summore it was freaking hot. sweating like hell when we got there.

played frisbee for a while. den went cycling. tried to cycle.lols.im hopeless at balancing. :) so din managed to cycle. haiz. ohwell, next time bahh. went back to the bbq pit....eat some food, den started playing big 2. haha. den went to teach bridge. lols.

was very late when i got hm. damn tired. and now i got muscle ache. lol.

i dont want to do my homework lehhs. 看了就很闲。esp amaths. i shall do them tmr. :) no mood today.

2008-12-16T20:45:00.002+08:00

omg. i cant believe i sent those out. i did it in a fit of insanity. urgh. im gonna look so bad. oh man.
haiz. but if 'sacrificing' myself can help to fix things, it doesnt really matter right? lols

anyway, tmr is class BBQ. and i got no dark tee to wear. how? sianz. i shall go dig my wardrobe. heh heh.

tads all bah. i lead a boring life. >.<

2008-12-14T13:48:00.002+08:00

yay. im proud of myself. haha.
i finished chem, phys, chi, eng, emaths. not bad huh? lols. im now stuck with amaths. haiz. those papers are killers can? i do the first qn den immediately stuck. urghh. i got no idea how to complete them before the holiday ends. oh well. at least i finished the rest. except for geog la. sianz. but...BUT...i DONT need to sit for the geog retest nxt yr!!! happy!!!

going on holiday from 22nd to 25th to batam. like last minute den book de can? haha. yay. i can get more clothes. woots~! i need to go bugis street again. i need more shirts!!! lols.

and i seriously need to exercise. im getting fat. very fat. FAT. i hate that word. rawr.

2008-11-30T17:22:00.002+08:00

ok. was, ah, occupied the last few days. back to normal business den. xD

21st to 23rd NOV:
went to rulang pri to get some cip hrs. was quite fun lah, although the hours was like damn long. got a few distractions, like the shuai ge huifang got a crush on. LOLS. oh, and i brought my rubiks cube along haha. duno solved it how many times for those 3 days. got no photos, coz my phone is jammed packed with songs. lols.

24th to 25th NOV:
hehe. the camp got off to a great start. why? i missed the first 5 hrs!!! haha. and got away scot-free. woots. lols. mrs loh allow de mah. although she got all suspicious when she saw me being high by myself. keke. lame -_-". anw, got a first aid talk, which was quite boring...den played games. and i won one round!! (: haha. siao liao. uh, after that was nap time i think. but we seniors din take a nap, we played poker cards. HAHA. den cindy and ethel came to join us, so yeah. alot of ppl wanted to play big2. but only can 4 mahh. so we took turns. den we went to hort park. got bitten by mosquitos. urgh. and coz it was night time, the juniors kept on talking abt ghosts. lols. like got any liddat. very funny larhs. the malays say they say a couple having sex. HAHA!. and when we told mrs loh, she want to go LOOK eh! uh ewww. lols. but heng arh, when she setting off, the couple walked towards us, and everyone was like clutching their stomachs. heh. went back bathe, and talk talk talk, very de sian.wanted to fall asleep liao. but den, went upstairs play poker until 2am. haha. and cindy n ethel call me 'sen'. lols.

2nd day was okay lah. did pt den played water games, which i did not enjoy at all. coz i was like wearing a white tee, and my shoes were soaked. haiz. den ate breakfast, during which huifang n the others made fun of me. rawr. after that my patrol won the best patrol, and the best camper also in my patrol de!!! wooo~! go xiuzhen!! :)ate lunch with stella they all den rushed like siao za bor for the bus. panting like siao lor. lols.

26th to 27th NOV:
i nvr knew selling cookies was this fun luhhs. i worked double shift for both days, den my feet aching like hell. ohya, and must smile always. so i got a fake smile plastered to my face for both days. lols. roped in my family to buy, so my hse is like full of guides cookies at the moment. and and and, the highlight of the day was during 4++, there's this guy arnd our age, came up to me and said he wanted 4 tins of mint cookies. siao la, 4 lehs. den he asked my what school i from, den for no reason tell me he's from bukit view ncc. haha!. ok la, he quite shuai de. den they all started to tease me all over again. haiz. but doesnt matter, coz he sort of made my day. lols!

den they second day i was going boy crazy. i kept on saying, i want to see shuai ge. siao liao lorhz. den no shuai ge de. disappointment sia. and den i was despo until i said even if the bvss ncc guy come again i also wun mind sia. haha! really really siao. den...oh nvm. he din appear also, so sad. lols. and den they started teasing all over again. -.-

yepps. so thats how my week go. tired like shit at the end. but worth it lah. coz got alot of cip hrs.yay!! but still no job sia. maybe going lib to do cip with huifang. see how first bahhs.

2008-11-29T21:41:00.002+08:00

was doodling just now while i was thinking. and this is what i came up with. and i swear, i nvr do this before sia. so can say its straight from the heart yeahh? anw, hope it makes someone happy. took me by surprise too.

2008-11-29T16:00:00.002+08:00

did i say u had no brains? no.
did i say u were an idiot? no.
and of course u din tell weixuan to call me a fucking bitch, din i say that in my previous post? yes.
did i say im clever? no.
yeah, u gotta admit im a brainiac. why? whenever im studying for the eoy, u keep on saying walau, so hardworking and all those stuff. so? conclusion: u are the one who keep on saying it. not me.
and lemme tell u, all those times and photos and memories, i cherished them too. and they were REAL. and u think i want to ruin it? the 3 of you were the closest friends i ever had in my pathetic life, so why would i want to do that unless i have no other choice?
and to be honest, im tired. tired of this kind of life. so, i am ready to back out. do what u want to, but those times we had together, are bloody REAL. I DIN HATE U FROM THE START, maybe u would like to know that. and i dun hate u now. im just weary, frustrated.
you are still my friend. but maybe it has changed. too weary to care at this moment. but what i say still stands. u can do what u want to to me.

2008-11-28T19:01:00.002+08:00

wow wow wow. nice essay. want to submit it to the newspaper?
okay, lemme say smth abt that damn essay.
firstly, its not that i dun understand. im the brainiac in our grp, rmb? its the way u use short form. hurts ppl eyes, babe. and yeah, i used the word 'decipher'. maybe u dun understand the word. check the dictionary wont u ?

secondly, its nt weird if i suddenly changed my attitude towards u. im very versatile. i can be friendly one second, and be like a bitch the next. surely u noe that by now, since u called me "bestest friends"?

thirdly, im not assuming. maybe to u i am, but im nt. why do u think i wait so long? lay eggs arh? i have eyes, za bor, and i noe how to observe ok. and im right. all of u are in ur little world, and im nt included. for example, during recess. u said that i dun go down becoz i want to read book, but i dun go becoz i noe u will be talking among urself again and i am sick of it. and u said none of us feel that way. wow. arent u assuming too? or are u having a nice discussion with wx and hm abt it? hmm. maybe u are, who noes?

fourthly, i dun really think u have the brains to be a mastermind of anything seriously. no offense meant of course. the thing is, even if u dun have the intention, u have that ability. and since u dun noe wad u did wrong, i shant tell u. why? wasting my breath again. maybe u can ponder abit more, yeah? and sure, the 4 of us are bestest friends, but it doesnt seem like we are nowadays, does it?

fifthly, its true she has been neglecting me. and i did think abt why i feel that way, im not brainless. its not like what u say, talking less to each other. and, just to let u noe, she nvr talk to me, AND I TRIED LIKE HELL TO TALK TO HER. u think i stupid? of course she nvr say that i stupid or a fucking bitch, why would i assume that? U are assuming that i assumed that. oh yeah, this is the problem between two of us, and u are the main factor that caused it, at least in my opinion. and i got no obligation to explain to u why i have that opinion. sure there are other factors, but i take care of things one by one, starting from the biggest pain in the ass.and how do i noe what u do? u did it, not me. and although i noe u din say all the not befriending things to her, the damage of whatever u did has the same extent. sure, u are angry. and im what? happy? bullshit.

sixth, u understand what figure of speech is. well, den why u have that particular response in the first place? since u noe what a figure of speech is, u shld have a different reaction.

seventh, what i say makes sense enough, even to my sister. and if someone yuan wang wo, i will let it be. life cannot always be on our side. and frankly, i will only talk back when the issue is serious, like NOW.

eighth, my bonding skills are fine. and i feel that u left me out, and I DID DO SOMETHING. i tried to get included into all ur bloody conversations, and what did i get for all my hard work? i get to see ur backsides as u turned ur back to me. wow, nice way of bonding. want to get a nobel prize with ur method?

ninth, i din noe that "fair and efficient" translates to spliting up the projects two-ways. sure we can split ONE project up fourways, but not TWO projects TWO-WAYS. that is called pairwork, not group work. and since when have u asked our opinion? u sms-ed me, and when i object, u argued bk, saying u n wx will explain it to us. well, i relented, and ACCOMODATED u. oh and there is nothing wrong with the two of u wearing class tee. its just that it irritates me. ALOT.

tenth, u think im sprouting crap? well, i personally, like the CRAP that im sprouting. u shld change, and dun think that u have the final say in everything. and u said that i shld try to change to accomodate u all. let me tell u smth, I HAVE BEEN ACCOMODATING U SINCE THE BLOODY START OF THE YEAR. i have been letting u and letting u and not making a single complain until now. if thats nt called accomodating, den i dun noe what it is.

oh, i dun think u go arnd influencing ppl nt to befriend me, i've got plenty of ppl who would gladly do that. and fyi, i always got my facts right. and did i say u go arnd influencing ppl? nope. YOU are the one assuming this time. sure, im at fault. for what? for being accomodating? wow. accomodating is a crime....how enlightening. oh and u are suprised that im civil? hmmm. maybe i have been showing my true colours alot, becoz im not fucking civil at all. at least im civil to ppl who i appreciate. i am civil to whoever i want to be civil to. and wait. bullshit is crap? well, thats a first. bullshit is bullshit, and crap is crap. dun see how ppl can mix them up.

u said u and wx din post things abt me. sure u din. and since when did i go with the flow? i do things my way. i dun have to follow urs. im very vocal, and i say and type whatever i like. and u think this is hurtful? this is only the tip of the iceberg compared to what u did to me. and im not finished with u yet.

2008-11-28T10:16:00.002+08:00

ok, lemme just clear up some stuff with this post.
first, i dont really understand wad the hell are u typing on ur blog, so dun blame me i cant decipher the words.

second, u ask me to say right to ur face. excuse me, i dont really have the time to meet up with u to say this stuff, so why dun u see it for urself? my blog is open 24/7!

third, u say u dun noe wad u did wrong. search ur consience. dun tell me that ur brain is so THICK that u din realise wad was happening between her n me, n it is sure not becoz of huimin. its you. so, yeah.and when u said i could have say it more clearly, it couldnt have been clearer enough to me. maybe u need a windblower to clear away the fog in ur head, maybe that will help, dont u think?

fourth, u said she had the freedom to make friends with other ppl, not just me. sure, i noe that, do u think im brainless like a troll?did i object to her making friends? no. but i sure dislike it when she neglects them. very deep dislike. why? its simply becoz that i have the impression that me n her are the closest, and suddenly she drifted like got tornado liddat! do u think its a good feeling? and u caused it, why? u influenced her most. clear enough now?

fifth, u said that u two are not les. hello, its not like im a troll. if u are a les, i will be scared to be friends with u sia. and when i say engagement or elope, ur response to me makes me think that u have got no thinking skills at all. cant u see its a figure of speech? wait, dont tell me. u dont know what a figure of speech is. den i really dunno what to say.

sixth, u wan us to be like old times. sure, being the INFLUENTIAL person u are, try to change things back to normal between her n me. im VERY SURE u can do it. since you are the one who messed things up, you shld clean up the mess dont u think?

seventh, u think i dont have the guts to tell u all this in person? wrong. ask huifang, and she will tell u im damn vocal. so why din i tell u in person? i prefer typing den wasting my words on you, since i noe pretty much u will argue back, and waste ALOT more of my saliva.

eighth, u said u try to not leave anyone out. well, two words. TRY HARDER. and since u wan to make the project to end faster, why not put 4 heads together and work even faster? as for the class tee issue, i dun think its a coincidence u two wear the same clothes on the same day. u planned it, and i dun like it. its a question of personal references, and i dun say u have to agree with me, just that u need to noe my point of view.

to be honest, im also sorry that the 4 of us turn out this way. but since it happened, it happened. so no use crying over split milk. i noe im a jealous bitch, but hey, u cant change my character. instead, u shld try accomodating for a change. and wow, im so civil in this post. no vulgarities! surprise eh?

2008-11-23T20:48:00.002+08:00

going to camp tmr. sianzz. another one sia. summore no break.

17th to 20th is that yoreca camp, den 21st to today is the robotics competition at rulang pri, den tmr is the guides camp. double sianzz sia.

anyway, i get to go late, so still got some privileges. lols. but the camp sucks sia. and its under ashiqa n amy, shit seh. saw the programme of the camp. definitely a failure. lols. sure die de. still deciding what time i shld show up...coz ah loh says after 2 mah. so i can go at 4 lah? haha.or i can dun go at all lols.

blah blah blah. i am still pissed. those 2 blogs spoiled my after-camp mood. i was so damn hyper and they just had to go and dampen my camp mood. shit them. 2 piles of cow dung. no wonder got stinky smell arnd them.

2008-11-23T17:49:00.003+08:00

im very buay song right now. just went to that fucking bitch blog, and saw smth that make my stomach churn, and make my blood boil. i mean, do u all have to be liddat? and have so much fun doing it? and be like the best of pals? i can tell, you are having so much fucking fun tgt that u are inside ur little world and im an outsider. fine, BITCHES, since u wan each other so much, get engaged, and hurry up do it, coz i dun like hanging on a thread and listening to the both of you BULLSHIT, and having to follow both of ur FUCKING ORDERS.

SO BITCHES, FUCK OFF.

2008-11-21T21:14:00.002+08:00

im so not feeling good today seh. whole freaking bodyache. sianzz. but still, its worth it lah. lols.

to a particular someone:

was feeling damn pissed when i recieved that msg from you-noe-who,telling me that you will be doing it with her.anyone asked me how i feel abt that?no. you all just assume that i will just go along with ur plans, that i will have no single fucking opinion. and when i give them, she just gave me bullshit. BULLSHIT, asshole. and you may ask why i feel pissed.well i tell you, im FUCKING JEALOUS.we always do everything together, and ur action is a sign that you are not FUCKING HAPPY with us right? hmph. im not exactly in the joyous mood either. and to the person who sent me that bloody msg, you dont really belong in my good books. why? YOU are the one that bring us apart. and im too polite to call u a bitch. yeahh right.

2008-11-20T19:58:00.002+08:00

CAMP WAS FUN FUN FUN!!!! (:

lols! im super high now. hehe. the YoReCa camp was like the best camp i've ever been to in all aspects. get to make new friends from other schools, and the accomodation was superb for a camp! :D okok. but im serious luh, its damn FUN. lols.

uh. lets start from day one bahhs. scary seh day one. those from css i dont know, and alot of other strangers from other schs. haha. was like, emo-ing down there and nt talking to anyone. after we got split into 4 grps, we start with icebreakers and war chant. it really gets everyone's spirits up and we were like so high luh. lols. after that, we check into our rooms. and its REALLY like a hotel rm. its so unlike a camp. hahas. den we went to home team academy and blah blah blah...i got STM sia...forgot the details le. but i did found out that nicolette knows my primary sch fren xuean. hahas.

and i dun feel like updating anymore sia. but i shall do it tmr kay? haha. i seriously cant recall anything right now lerh. but doesnt mean i forgot everything wor. (:

2008-11-15T16:59:00.002+08:00

the email that the organiser sent me made me very happy. lols. but still not as happy as a dont-need-to-go email would. why would i be happy leh? haha. its not really a camp at all lor.
we get to use handphone, get to use the internet, and we even get to sleep with air-conditioner. how SHIOK is that lah.

an equation would be:
handphone+internet+air con = SHIOK!
hehe.

but i dont feel like doing the physical stuff leh. sian. and i will be so damn lonely la. the only girl from css. the rest all guys lehh. urgh. not that i dont like them, but still its uncomfortable lo. summore not very familiar with them. they all got partner, only i dont have. rawr.

i think going to weixuan's hse to do project tmr.coz my hse is currently a rubbish dump. lols. and den i will shun bian go cut my hair. its getting too thick liao......and i want to get it cut before my camp nxt monday. one plus thing abt the camp: maybe got shuai ge. HAHA. im getting crazy even before i get there.

so busy during the holidays lor.
wait i list out everything.
1. 17th-20th nov: youth resilience camp.
2. 21st to 23rd nov: ushering @ rulang pri.
3. 24th to 25th nov: guides camp.
4. 26th to 27th nov: selling cookies @ je ntuc.

all consecutive days lehh!!! want me to die issit? haiz. if this is the holidays, i hate holidays.

2008-11-14T18:54:00.002+08:00

OMG. i went shopping until my legs hurt. haha. i have a freaking muscle ache now, and it is worsened by today's idiotic treasure hunt. heh.

ytd was so much fun can? went to city hall, marina sq, bugis, and vivo and harbourfront. god, imagine the amount of WALKING we did. i had to stop for TWO times in vivo to rest la. nvr happened before lor. hehe. spent arnd 7 weeks worth of savings? im gonna go hungry for 7 weeks to get back my money...lols.

took neoprints. not bad la, 1st time with huifang, din turn out so bad. in fact, its quite nice la. hahas. too lazy to post. =P

ok, onto another topic altogether.
i just recieved an email from the camp organiser. sianzz. i need to go to buona vista by 8 in the morning lehhs. on a monday lehhs. alone lehhs!!! haissh. i hate you huifang. how can you abandon me liddat?! im so hurt. sobz. rawr.
this email just confirmed that my november is so damn packed. i cant get any day free. double siannz. oh well, i just had to sacrifice to get my CIP hours, to make up for my lousy results bahh.

and for that someone, lets be like we once were yeahh?

2008-11-12T21:29:00.002+08:00

yepp. just changed my blogskin. not bad eh? makes me want to eat.....haissh. im SO gonna get FAT. haha.

going out with huifang tmr. since someone doesnt bother to reply me, i asked huifang, and unlike that somebody, she at least replied, at even went to the next level by saying yes.
shopping MARATHON tmr! woots saved up all year for this sia. wanted it to be a special day, but since she din BOTHER to reply, oh well. but its still special, coz first time going out with huifang!!! (: heh heh.

made considerable progress with my homework, but no progress at all in looking for a job. sianness. lols. anyway, u all can go to this game site, VIWAWA.COM. its damn fun la. meet me there yeahhs? add me too. im THINKERISTIC. same as my maple name. haha.

to that someone:
i hoped that u read what i wrote in ur tagboard. and i meant it. i dont want us to end.
if i made u feel insulted, den i apologise. truly.
love ya babe. rmb that.

2008-10-26T17:37:00.002+08:00

every friendship that i have, everyone of them is special...
and i don't understand why the both which i hold closest keeps fading day by day, bit by bit.....

2008-10-25T19:00:00.000+08:00

things keep on changing, but not for the better. why?

2008-10-25T17:00:00.002+08:00

well...after the horrendously vulgar post, i tink i feel much better than before. feels great to be able to relieve my feelings in the way that i like. i know that im very, errr, crude?, but at least i dont scold them to ur face right? i have double personalities. haha.

thought about things lately, and i think i have no more need to pine over him anymore. i mean, friendship is so much stronger than any relationship. and with that, can we go back to the time when we first met, and became tight friends as we go on to sec2? coz we've been drifting apart, and ignoring each other seems to be all that we do these days. and as you grow closer to her, at least include me in will ya? coz, the three of us were tight, and i want it to remain that way with me still in that triangle. and i dont want this friendship to end. and i hope, u still tell me everything instead of telling everything to her alone, to be like what u always did last time. i want us to be like before. please.

2008-10-21T16:54:00.003+08:00

okay...i know the blog is dead, for like, a month. lols. but im seriously pissing my pants of here. never felt as pissed off as this, EVER. and every offense is intended. im not gonna say no offense like what cowards do.

so, we had guides meeting today for only one reason. mrs loh wants to talk to us abt smth urgent. sure, i can accept that. den we turn up punctually at 1.15. and yang yizhuang didnt get the key, and thought huishan and huifang got it. stupidity... and therefore we start the fucking meeting half hr later. sure, i can also accept that, no prob. and so the meeting starts. we waited and waited for 3 WHOLE FUCKING HOURS. and the first few minutes they, as in the useless excos, wanted us to "bond". like we haven even done enuf of that. and we just sat there like dumb people. we were supposed to be released at 2pm due to the 'O' levels. and what happened? we stayed all the way till 4. bloody fucking shit.

thats not all. having waited for so long, we all wanted to go home, for there wasnt supposed to be any activities after sch. we even got released early for god's sake! and when we grumbled, yizhuang just glared at us, like we commited a serious crime. for chrissakes, its not we are having the time of our lives here, bitch. you have got no right to turn all pms-y on us, female dog. and u sure dont have the right to abuse ur authority and throw ur weight around like no one's business. and for ur information, u made me wanna puke in ur white fucking face with your actions. thats right, im a vulgar bitch. what can u freaking do abt it, moon-face???

den i practically got steam coming out of my ears. they went to get mrs loh after 3 freaking hours when they could have done that at the start of the meeting. and because her meeting cant wait, she said we have to come back on friday for 2 hrs to hear what she wanted to say.so we wasted our time waiting fruitlessly, for an announcement thats gonna come 3 days later. bloody shit. we dont even have school on friday! and she just want us to come back for her stupid urgent stuff.

and before that, i was getting ready hurl out of the school. why? lemme start a few weeks ago. me and huifang were chosen to go for a 4 day 3 night camp, and we dont even have a choice whether to reject it or not. so in short, we were forced to go. and that's not all. our own girl guides camp is held just 2 DAYS after that camp. how the bloody hell are we supposed to get ready for that camp?! and they juz announced today that there are 3 compulsory activities that everyone had to attend, and just becoz we dun have enuf people, all of us need to take part in 2 or more. fucking mother fucker. like our fault we dun have enuf people... summore the one me and huifang were chosen for is just 1 day after the 4 day camp! so my stand is this: if u want me to go for the 4 day camp and the ushering stuff, im NOT going to the guides camp. i dont care if u sue me, im not going to turn up. and i have my father's support. they already said last yr my results slipped becoz guides took up too much of my time. too bad, SUCKERS.

its not that im against guides, its just not fair. that white-faced bitch treats us unfairly. for when she did not bring polo tee, the rest of us who had need to go along with her and not wear the polo tee. and what happens when it comes to us? we get tons of punishment....like thats bloody fair. where have all the justice gone in this world? or should i say in this UG?

heyy, i like guides, just not the bloody excos. and stella and renee are excluded. i got nothing against them.

so once again, i repeat myself. the white-faced bitch and her right hand woman pisses the pants off me, and before u come scolding and punishing, look at urself last yr. u too wrote in ur blog abt guides, and was soo damn fucking reluctant to apologise. well, since u urself noe the feeling, im sure u would think twice, or thrice, before even thinking abt punishing me, bitch. and btw, offenses are, once again, every bit intended.

2008-09-27T09:10:00.002+08:00

I GOT MY CRUMPLER!!! :)
haha!! finally. woots~!

anyway finally got the chance to update. didnt have the time to touch the com.
end of year is coming in just 1 week lehhs. although the language papers are over, still got 6 more subject to go...sianz. im getting stressed. this is worse den mid-yr.

the HCL paper wasnt so bad. its do-able lahh, at any rate =). was feeling damn high after the exam.summore its 6 lehh, supposed to be feeling tired but i wasnt.lols.
the eng paper was a disaster.haiz. set so bloody hard for what? see us fail issit? rawr.

and it doesnt help that we got a pile of homework. how to finish??!!

2008-09-02T18:03:00.002+08:00

wow. WALL-E is soooo cute!!! xD haha. watched it at jp today. but abit sad luh. coz hes all alone for 700 hundred years with just a cockroach and mountains of rubbish for company....

soo, the holidays have started but its still full of homework...siannz. maybe going to the library tmr. hope to get things done.

2008-08-25T18:03:00.002+08:00

woots. din update on sat coz too damn tired....hahaz. was out the whole day...
woke up arnd 7+. very early lor. haiz. den it was raining heavily, so was comtemplating if still want go sentosa anot. afterwards decide go eat breakfast first den see. by then rain little liao, so went. but disappointment la. din do anything much. nearly got carsick when going out of sentosa. lols. went to haw par villa for lunch. its like i died and gone to heaven can???the food is damn good lah. and ex too. haha. thank you ah bing gor gor!! =)

went to collect my birthday cake den got home. changed, shower, waited for my relatives to come. blah blah blah....was too full to eat a proper dinner, so all of us just ate something to fill our stomach. lols.

recieved presents!!! pon and jacky gave me a ridiculous present lol.its got lace and frills on it!!! ahhhh!! >.< lol. got a big big baby piglet from weixuan, coco, sinjoo, huimin and yingfeng! cute sia. and a mug from huifang and a photo frame from yimeng, a dolphin pendant from valerie. whee~! thank you!!!

2008-08-22T21:54:00.002+08:00

finally the weekend is here!!! woots. and tmr is my birthday! yay! :D lols.
today recieved loads of presents. thanks alot ppl! love ya.
going sentosa tmr. from morrning till the afternoon....haiz..need wake up damn early.
ohwell, better than nth la. =)

2008-08-15T21:43:00.002+08:00

WHAT A WEEK SIA. a really bad week. screwed up like shit. lets go through this week in detail.

Tuesday:
returned to sch after the long weekend. dont really rmb the details. did the accident prevention badge during guides. ended up doodling crap. wasnt in the right frame of mind...too high.

Wednesday:
day gotten off to a bad start. going back to class after the morning assembly, den the damn VP pulled me out. fuck sia. din even noe wad i did wrong la. den she started lecturing me about my shoes and skirt. i made my stand again and again and it seems that the teachers in CSS dont give a damn abt what the students had to say in their own defense. my shoes, according to her and a few other teachers, are all black. that got me wondering if they are all colour blind. not that im blaming them...they ARE getting old anyway... but if they bothered to look properly, my shoes consisted of more than 50% white. its only coz the base is black. let me tell you, none of them would make good judges. coz they are too biased. i mean, look at other people's shoes. most of them are consisted of mostly grey, and they just let them past. whereas a few shades darker got me caught. next was the skirt. hello, a reminder again. i towered over all of them( two actually), and they got the nerve to say my skirt short. eh, look carefully again please. my legs are freaking LONG. jealous coz both of urs are short? lols. if you took of my skirt and give to someone with short legs, i tell u it will reach beyond her knees. what kind of judgement is based on an entirely different thing atogether? they judge it based on how much is exposed instead of the actual length. and they call it "length of the skirt". hmph. more like length of the exposed skin. care to change the name, teachers? not a bad choice. at least to ppl like me and alot more others, make more sense. well, i can sympathise with ur limited IQ. VP, you shld thank me. im kind enough to reply you politely instead of giving you fucking attitude. oh, and dont take offense yeahh? im relieving my feelings...dont you all?
the rest of the day went in a blur. i was in a fucking mood.

Thursday:
went quite well. nothing much to talk abt. at least i wasnt bothered by the "authorities" again.

Today:
only thing i can rmb is guides. fun sia. played captain's ball. heng my group no lousy sec ones. breezed through the first round. no challenge la. maybe except from renee. lols. finals were a bit harder. nice ball game though. both teams played really well. =) i was panting like shit afterwards. and we won!!! go grp one!!! xD the best guides meeting sia. whoo~!

yeah that's abt it. im not myself lately. very grumpy.

2008-08-10T21:00:00.002+08:00

had a very tiring day today!!! rawr.
played one hour of badminton, didnt play so badly. :D i was just venting my frustration at that someone on the shuttlecock, so its really quite battered. sweating like shit but felt damn shiok. =)
went home, ate lunch, watch the olympics! the USA are really good. especially micheal phelps. whoo~! jiayous! and s'pore okok la. but must still buck up lor. lagging quite behind....
anw. i still have plenty of homework, and havent do yet. going to sinjoo's hse tmr for geog project, so my homework is going to be left untouched. haiz.

i know how u feel already. i have my sources. i am so over you. you are such a bastard.
but, can we go back to the time when we used to hang out and about everything except nothing? because, in case you havent realise, we havent talked in months...

2008-08-08T22:18:00.006+08:00

wakakaka!!! today is so fun!! whee~! lols!
woke up damn early today to go to the JE cultural hall for the ndp rehearsal. huishan was supposed to tie my hair but in the end i just went out with a bun becoz the whole bunch of them was late! strictly speaking its not a bun la, more like a furry ball....
the parade was alright lah, but there's one command that we din hear, the whole squad la can. but its not our fault la. the damn music is juz too damn loud yeahhs. so yizhuang, dun be so pissed! xD
we were damn high during the national day songs part. but when we started to get really high, all the guests started going off. spoil the atmosphere la. but we still sang until got no voice liao. haha! whoo~! >.<

so after the celebrations went home in a hurry...din even stayed for the reception. lols. but no use de lor. 187 all got alot of ppl la. den missed 3 buses before going home. bathe like shit when reached home lor. no time le mahh. rush arnd the hse like siao za bo liddat. heh heh. den turns out i was the earliest la. made me regret rushing lor. but den im used to waiting for ppl, since everytime i was the earliest, and that's even when i was late myself!

went to bugis junction first.ate mac. very hungry lor. we pratically run to mac la. haha. after that go walk walk and took neoprints. very nice!! but expensive la. $11 u noe. there's this one which we all dyed our hair a different colour and wore glasses. haha. nice nice! xD walk finish liao decided to go raffles place to see our postcards for the olympics team de. in the end, they din open the whole banner la, so cant see ours....rawr. but we bought helium balloons!!! haha. mine was white with musical notes, weixuan's was purple with butterflies and dragonflies, huimin's was white with hearts, and sinjoo's was purple with the word "PRINCESS"! haha. everybody stared at us lah. i mean, its not everyday you get to see 4 teenage girls carrying helium balloons like a 5 year-old right? lols!

next place was vivo. typical lah, like everytime go out nid go vivo de. =)
was quite late when we reached. went around, mini toons...blah blah lah. den when we walking to TOY R US, my balloon went 'pop'. damn loud can? was surprised at first, den sadded. haiz. that balloon costs 2 bucks lor! but i wasnt very sad la. it was getting in the way anyway. went inside and sat down at the soft toys there. zilian for awhile and saw a big big doggie that is sooo cute!!! i want!!! but din get it la. :( sat until arnd 7. din even realise its so late. decided not to eat dinner den go play water. din play for long coz its like late liao, and i needed to get home. reluctant lah. left at 7.30. sat on the floor of the mrt!!! coz after all that walking we did, standing wasnt an option la. lols. den more ppl stared at us, coz we got helium balloons AND were sitting on the floor. again, not a common sight la. HAHA!

den i was pissed la. all the buses going to my hse all nvr come, den i was like getting panicky coz i sure get scolding de. sure enough, my parents din disappoint me. recieved 2 scoldings abt reaching home so late, recieved the usual threat that i wont be allowed to go out. wasnt really listening la. watching tv mahh. much more interesting. no point arguing with them, coz there's no way that i will win. they always used the respecting elders excuse, which just simply means, you cant talk back. so i just kept silent. it is so fucking unfair.i wanted to tell them, i was the one who tried to rush home in order not to be scolded, else i would still be at vivo till 8 la. i actually thought abt their feelings and they din thought about mine. i mean, which teen would still rush home just becoz they got a curfew and care if they are going to be scolded. hey, i tried, but i just guess i dont shine in their eyes like my older and baby sister does. and i actually wanted to please them. CAN U BELIEVE IT? i really cant. there's this saying that the middle one always dont feel like a family with their family. its most definitely true.

ohwell, its still overall a happy day la. i dont give a damn what my parents think of me. or do i? either way,they can just rot in hell.

enjoy the pics yeahh? they are not in order la. but if you want those nicely arranged, go weixuan's blog.

2008-08-04T20:43:00.002+08:00

school was BORING. all the lessons were. haiz.
wrote a compo for english com test. my mind was a blank when i saw the questions. i mean like, why give so many to choose from de? den i settled on jealousy. coz all the other qns got no idea how to write. siannz. i am dead la. i exceeded the word limit by alot. supposed to write 500 nia, think i wrote arnd 800. could have written more but short of time. crap ending. spoiled the story. rawr. many of my brain cells died when writing that stupid compo. poor cells....

researching the geog thingy abt deltas now. cant find a single shit thats actually useful. siannz. ZZZZ. dun understand why need to do the model lor. waste of time sia. summore got four to do sia. die liao..

going to je cultural hall tmr for ndp rehearsal. more siannz sia. ohwell, at least not with the sec ones. their marching can make you puke blood and whatever you ate for dinner AND lunch. all offense meant.

im such a mean bitch. >.< cant help it.hate me all you want. I DONT CARE.

tempting sia that bottle of pills. cant wait to open it...but i was forbidden. rawr.

2008-08-03T16:37:00.002+08:00

whoo~! tmr is my birthday! haha. its the lunar one larhhs. the real one is um 20 days away. at least i tink so larh.

felt like blogging, so im blogging. >.<
ytd was crap. seriously. i wasted my whole afternoon to cheer the 4 guys on and in the end just sat there in the SP lecture room stoning. STONING. real nice way to spend a nice saturday afternoon, dont you think so? summore it stretches so late that i missed my tv show.

woke up at 6+ today to go play badminton in JE cultural hall. its becoming a routine, badminton den swimming every sunday. not bad luh, get to exercise. i really am fat. dont just judge me based on my limbs yeahhs? =) but today din get to swim coz nid to go home and bai bai. lols.
after that den bath hurriedly coz going to chevron. why? my swimsuit got a HOLE at the butt there. damn malu, i KNOW. and since chevron got smth like a sale or smth, so my ma ask me go there with her. in the end din get anything coz i dun like any. becoz all of them are bikinis and i really dont have the type of figure. LOLS.

came home did nth except watch tv. haiz. im turning into a couch potato. crap. den bored so on the com and here i am! =) ok im lame.

thought you were talking about me. in the end, figured out it wasnt. my hopes were, once again, crushed.
you just seemed to do nothing but just that to me....

2008-07-30T17:52:00.002+08:00

MY NECK IS KILLING ME!!!!
rawr. i dont know what happened myself. on monday i sleep sleep sleep den found out i cant turn my head without experiencing pain. OUCH. it sucks to the core.
and sughan was like saying, lets play hei bai pei. i mean like, wth? i was considering not going to school, but my mum dont let, so i ended having a painful day in school. haiz. im such a disaster....got sick last week, and now this.

today was better. but still cant turn my head normally. ohwell, at least it can maintain an upright position. i will DIE if its not well tmr. i cant stand missing P.E for two weeks in a row. firstly, its damn malu, second, im getting fat. need some exercise. lol.
and physics just made it worse. mdm quek din brief us at all what to do so we were totally lost in the physics lab. and mr koh is more sarcastic. lol. he scolded me la, saying i cannot tie knot. is he make my bob fell off de lor. hmph!

ndp is coming....hope it goes okay yeahhs?

2008-07-26T11:53:00.002+08:00

realised that i haven blog for a long time. haha. been busy with homework. rawr. i dont think i know the definition of fun anymore. not since i've been behind with my schoolwork. such a tragedy...what's life without fun yeahh?

training resumed yesterday for NDP. haiz. even though i wanted to be in the squad, i dont know why i felt so lifeless ytd. maybe its because of....well, i dun wanna say it. makes me sad just thinking of it.

its like im possessed or something. i dont know what im doing, just following blindly out of habit. abit out of sorts. sigh. this sucks. badly. ok, enough of the emo stuff. its the weekend!!! shit. that sounds so....fake.

i need to get going with my school work. i have never been so behind before...im so going to drop right into the bottom of the class. i dont think i can stand that happening to me..its a major self-esteem thing. hurts my pride. so, what can i do? i dun even noe that. all because....

2008-07-18T15:54:00.002+08:00

survived another day at sch. stressed sia. i dont understand mdm quek!!! and i wasnt even playing the cube anymore. haiz. but i was reading a storybook....so...ok nvm. =) Eng was BORING. could sleep sia. but hor, all give hw lehhs. shittyhell.

and no, i din walk by even once. so im not the person yeah?
ok. i get it. but i cant get over it.

2008-07-16T17:18:00.002+08:00

argh. i dont understand a single thing mdm quek teaches today. lols. partly cause i was playing the rubik's cube. HAHA. regretted doing that. haiz.

im pissed of with my sister. everytime i switch the com on, she says, " eh i want to use for homework. go away". what's her bloody problem la? she can just go to hell. i havent touch the laptop for ages. and she has to use it the same time i does.

u just pointedly ignored me, even asking me to move away.
am i that hard to talk to? cause everytime u saw me wid her, u just act like im invisible. only she matters right? fine. want to know why im furious at you? figure it out yourself.

2008-07-14T19:37:00.002+08:00

im in a good mood today :) got 18 and 20 for LC! woo~! HAHAs. highest i ever gotten. so u can see the reason im so high. lols.
and the AVA room is soooooo cold. brrrr. my fingers went numb and took a long time replying SMSes. haiz. oh well, at least its cold rather than hot....

oh. i just want to say im tired of getting your attention when u dont want to give it to me. maybe its time i give up yeahhs?

2008-07-13T17:02:00.002+08:00

ok im back. saw this in pon's blog. like very nice. haha. distraction from studying for maths...
here goes:

Pick 8 friends at the top of your head now:

1.Weixuan
2.Coco
3.Stella
4.Yingfeng
5.Hui Fang
6.Nicol
7.Karthik
8.Valerie

One random thing around you now that represents 1 (Weixuan)
My amaths file lols. she is smart sia.

Choose a song from your playlist to be the theme song for 2 (Coco)
跟着我的tempo. she has a weird tempo. hard to follow. haha.

If 3 (Stella) had been a mythical creature, which one would it be?
Erm. i duno any mythical creature sia. im abit stupid k.

Pick a colour that represents 4 (Yingfeng)
shes always emo-like. black?

A typeface that matches 5 (Huifang)
duno...

One fashion brand that would not go along well with 6 (Nicol)
Eh...roxy? haha.

For 7 (Karthik): Would you get a wallet, necklace or bag?
hmmm. broke lately. necklace? lols.

Choose a dish that goes well with 8 (Valerie).
Chocolate waffle! wait. it is a dish right?

[10] firsts.
First Best Friend:
Erm, rachel?

First Screen Name:
forgot. haha.

First Pet:
dun have any pets...

First Piercing:
not yet. >.<

First crush:
benedict? if thats considered a crush lols. so long liao.

First CD:
K ONE.

First Car:
wait till i got the money yeah.

First Love:
Nope dun have.

First Place Called Home:
Clementi blk 351

[9] Lasts.

Last Beverage:
Ice Milo

Last Car Ride:
just now. going home from vivo.

Last Movie Seen:
The Bourne Identity

Last Phone Call:
Cousin.

Last Song You Listened To:
Feeling you. Jesse McCartney's.

Last Bubble Bath:
dun have one before. lols.

Last Time You Cried:
um. recently bahhs. over someone.

Last Thing You Ate:
Crackers.

Last Bad Thing You Did:
not studying.

[8] Have You Evers.

Have You Ever Dated One Of Your Best Friends:
no. i like boys can?

Have You Ever Been Arrested:
nah. im a good girl.

Have You Ever Skinny Dipped:
Nope

Have You Ever Been On A Limo:
nooo. im not rich.

Have You Ever Cheated:
yepp. haiz.

Have You Ever Been In Love:
No.

Have You Ever Been In A Car Accident:
yeahhs. small thing la.

Have You Ever Broken A Bone:
No. im a careful person. haha.

[7] Things You Are Wearing

1) Green tee
2) Green shorts
3) Ring
4) necklace
5) out
6) out
7) out

[6] Things You've Done Today.
1) Wake up
2) go vivo
3) Watch TV
4) Sit down :)
5) Blogged
6) Listen to songs

[5] Favourite Things.
1) MP3
2) Television
3) My phone
4) My bed
5) Computer

[4] People You Tell Almost Anything To.
1)Weixuan
2)Huifang
3)Nicol
4)Karthik

[3] Choices.
1. Black Or White: black. duh...
2. Hot Or Cold: hot. :)
3. Chocolate Or Vanilla: chocolate!!!

[2] Things You Want To Do Before You Die.
1)Confess.
2)Sleep.

[ 1 ] Thing You Regret.
liking that someone.

2008-07-13T16:15:00.007+08:00

went to vivo today. a short trip. just got back :) hmm, woke up arnd 8+, watch tv, changed and off to vivo. forced my parents to go to the places i want to go first. HAHA. they were PISSED. muahahahahaaa.....

den my mum wants to go GIANT buy duno wad, so we entered and me and my sister began milling arnd like a bunch of goons. lols! took pics coz i was simply damn bored. and we lost ourselves when we tried to go to the carpark after GIANT. gosh, i've been to vivo countless times and i got lost. unbelievable. but its not familiar grounds la. haha.

pictures time!!!

zilian sia. im a zilian person.

o.O im striped!!!

a whole rack of lock lock stuff.....

towels! :D

whee~! me LIKKKEEE...

drank from that water thingy. sat on the furry chair...

zilian again. lols. and see the world from my knees! not very much, i know...

i hate you for not trusting me.

i hate you for not telling me everything and everything to her.

i hate you for being so cold.

i hate you for not being in your mind.

i hate you because u cant bring yourself to tell me everything.

i just hate you. i hate myself for hating you.

2008-07-12T19:42:00.002+08:00

YESS!!! the official opening is over since ytd! wooo~ :)
the parade was nice!!! haha. although we made some mistakes during the march past, we did alright didnt we? so dont cry guides yeahh? girl power!!! :) only ahma fall out ok...NCC got 2...muahahaha. ok im mean. sorry. =)

shall update about today's west division day. nth much la. the environment booth thing sucks like shit. a complete waste of time. lols. the lunch wasnt so bad. but the vege is disgusting. according to huishan anw, i didnt even bother to touch it. :) after that went to watch movie. saw 'ENCHANTED' and part of 'MULAN II'. den went for the prize giving. and css actually won smth! yay! lols. forget what liao, so...yeah nvm.

and on the bus ride home, on 176. tad sec one zainul i tink, boarded the same bus which is bad luck sia. making fun of her in the bus with the others. HAHA..in chi la. not being rascist or anything, but she is just repelling people away type of person. rawr. hate her sia. overly enthu which is suffocating for the people arnd her lor. den finally got some dist between us and her...blah blah blah. den im the first to get off, den she heard the others saying byebye to me, den she sitting at the door there mah. and den she said byebye to me so loudly i almost DIEEEEED. god, damn malu la....rawr. so the whole bus knows im accquainted with her. that is freaking embarrassing la!!!! omg. maybe im exaggerating, but its REALLY how i feel at that moment. shes a walking nightmare.

okay. i finished complaining. lols. tmr going vivo with family, so i need to finish my homework today and finish study for maths. i want a A1. i dont care what it takes sia. alright, back to my boring homework....

2008-07-09T19:15:00.002+08:00

god. i havent been listening to lessons lately..HAHAHA. all thanks to the storybooks! i polished one off everyday. HAHA. could have finished off more, but my eyes hurt...rawr.

had a pretty uneventful day, not counting the shuai ge part. LOL. assembly period replaced by the HIV/AIDS talk...was a stupid talk lah. wasnt paying much attention, partly due to the boys at the back. noisy like shit sia.

since today no OC, went to the lib with weixuan and sinjoo. but i finished my homework liao..so guai rite?! (: haha. so i went to read books. finished off another one. :) and started on sinjoo's one. read until pg 102 coz nid go home liao. and borrowed 3 other books. HAHA. im a bookworm. i DEVOUR books.

ohya. the oral ytd was okay la. tink i did ok. at least i hope so. LOL. o.O im falling in LOVE with CAPITAL LETTERS. (:

shld i let go? or shld i hang on? but i want to tell u. u have stolen my heart.

2008-07-06T17:10:00.003+08:00

was feelin bored while doing geog, so i took pics!!! damn cute sia.... =)

aww. so sweet!!!

moose: im gona squash u!! muahahaha!!!

cow: ahhhhhh!!!!! help!!!!!

oops. they just fell dead. X.x or are they just sleeping???hmm

HUG!!! :)

cow: ooof! dun kick me!!! rawr!

moose: heyhey! a free ride!!! :)

cow: man u are heavy! ooof!

cow: hahahaha! im taller than u shortie!

moose: RAWR! im gonna eat you!!!

okay im lame. >.<>

ohwell. i need to do my ss, else i cant go out tml. rawr.

2008-07-05T16:32:00.002+08:00

ok changed my blogskin today. i searched for like more than 2 days to get this. >.< rawr. nice right? haha. first time i using a skin with people...other than the bbt one of course. haha.

and found a song thats damn nice. jesse mccartney's tell her. =)

2008-06-29T20:56:00.002+08:00

im bored. im bored. im bored. out of my skin.

btw. i agree. there is no need for a school to be 'officially' opened only after 1.5 years. it is just wasting my doing homework time. since we are on the topic of homework, i havent finish reading hong lou meng. and i nid to read 9 chapters. im not even through with one yet. its just so, BORING. and confusing, i might add.

and for once, going to my grandparents hse may not be that bad afterall. i wasnt left with absolutely nothing to do. i get to watch youtube. :) an improvement, nonetheless. and my blog is pictureless. i am getting really lazy. dont feel like posting even though i have plenty of pics meant for posting.

and i realised, my posts are longer than before...i tink this has partly to do with the fact that im aging and getting naggy. i apologise. (:

P.S english songs are not that bad afterall. and i love 林宥嘉's 伯樂. its damn nice. :) o.O im getting so random...

2008-06-25T19:37:00.002+08:00

i miss ms yang and ms faith!!! the debarati person has such a strong indian accent den i listen till wan to die liao. argh. and ms kokila is not my type of good cher. she wants to give us test on smth we haven even learn yet. haiz. i want my old teachers back.

oh and got punished today. didnt bring and do chi hw which was given to us b4 the sch hols. guess its our fault la. made to stand outside the classroom for sometime. tink i deserved it sia. sigh...

and im getting damn stressed again. can die le. i havent recover from the holidays. still in the mood to do nth and just slack.

2008-06-20T18:47:00.002+08:00

this sucks like hell. i have to wake up freaking early tmr morning coz i hafta be at sch at 6.45 for some idiotic walkathon. i mean, i have already donated money for it already...why must i go to the damn thing itself??!! haiz. life is soo not sweet.

as for my homework, little progress sia. im like lagging way behind. i can be awarded the prize for most slack person. i still have so much work to do!!!

going to weixuan's hse to finish the history project after the walkathon. hope can really finish so that thing wont bother me anymore. and i have to try to finish all my homework tmr, else im really halfway into my coffin waiting to be buried.

and ytd OC training was not bad lahh, seeing as we got praises. haha. but must not be complacent coz i dun think we are perfect. still have lots of room for improvement.

2008-06-18T12:33:00.002+08:00

yay!!! im out of camp!!! =) actually the camp was okay la. but nothing beats home sweet home. haha. xD really enjoyed the campfire last night. damn high sia. sing until no voice. whee~!

dun feel like updating anymore. hafta do hw but not in the mood lehhs. how?

2008-06-13T20:09:00.002+08:00

i got COMPLAINS to make. i dont feel happy abt being made to run and spend transport fees unwillingly in the holidays. i dont like the fact that i have to wake up at unworldly hours to do homework AND go to school. finally, i JUST DONT LIKE THE HOMEWORK.

regarding the first complain, i woke up at 6 this morning to go to school at 7.30. from there we take the bus to zhonghua sec in serangoon, which is previously unknown to me. and its practically on the OTHER SIDE OF S'PORE!!!! rawr. den the stoopid heritage trail requires us to take so damn many freaking mrts and walk so many kilometres. i sure kena muscle ache tml. argh. to top it all up, my ezlink card is broke. broke. i spend alot of money on transport sia. and its our own money. THEY NVR GIVE!!............. and im getting AGITATED. if they cause me to have heart attack im going to haunt them till they die...

regarding the second complain, i have to wake up damn early to do hw. why? all the damn credit goes to girl guides. and i dont care if they make me make a public apology. im not doing it. the excos have the same hw as i have. and they had to organise a stoopid camp that take up 3 PRECIOUS days. and its completely useless. and i cant do my homework. and the PROJECTS HOW???!!! i want to die.die. die. die..........

and the third, blame the teachers. im supposed to brush up my physics yet i havent touch it yet. bloody hell. im dead as sure as the grass is green.

okay. enough of the complains. lol.
weixuan just said her diaries belong to me....after she die. den i ask what if i die first. she say:"oh i din thout of that..." -_-" lol! sooooo exciting....
too bad i dint have a diary...else she can have it.haha.

2008-06-12T17:14:00.002+08:00

okay. found this in weixuan's blog. quite interesting la. lol.

How are you feeling today?
你最近还好吗？
i thout im the one answering the questions???

How far will you get in life?
我爱的人
erm...no connection?

How do your friends see you?
月儿光光
im shining like the moon? lol!!!

Will you get married?
七彩棒棒堂
i will get married 7 times?! oh god.

What is your best friend's theme song?
爱情学测
erm ok....

What is the love story of your life?
再次相信
believe again?

What was high school like?
青鸟
green bird?!

What's in store for this weekend?
哪里怕
not scared? not scared of wad?

How's your life going?
酸甜
bittersweet...not good rite?

How can you get ahead in life?
越爱越难过
by loving more and grieving more? this is sooo not good.

What's the best thing about your friends?
背影
their back view? lol!

What song will they play at your funeral?
末日之恋
okay la...not bad.

How does the world see you?
牵牵牵手
i like to hold hands?

Do people secretly lust after you?
幸福就好
er....

How can you make yourself happy?
Last Christmas
erm...i dont really celebrate Christmas.

What should you do with your life?
爱来过
love came by?

Will you ever have children?
那一天
guess so...that day?

What song will you strip to?
期待你的爱
er...

what does your mummy think of you?
一眼万年
um, meaning?

What is your deep dark secret?
Make me a fool.
huh?

What is your mortal enemy's song?
because you live
sooo...because i live she is my mortal enemy?

What's your personality like?
梦想号
dreaming?

What song will be played at your wedding?
我们之间
oooo...nice song. me LIKEEEEE.

okay...im depressed. heehee.

2008-06-11T17:58:00.002+08:00

oh boy. i am so dead.
i only left less than a week to finish my homework. why? all the credit goes to guides. shitty hell la. especially the camp. can i pon it? haiz.

went to dar's hse today. do the maths. and halfway done. i just need to scan the drawings.

going grandma's hse tml. duno for what sia. means i miss another day of doing my homework. and i didnt get to go swimming. haiz. im not in a good mood right now.

2008-06-10T19:34:00.002+08:00

i just realised i haven updated for a seriously long time. yup yup im very busy...with what i also got no idea. i wasnt doing hw, wasnt going out, wasnt doing anything yet i feel very busy. hmmm...

anw going to dar's hse tml. do maths story project. and still have the history project to do. sianzzz. bleahx. wad kind of holiday is this?! lol.

went to tampines ytd to distribute flyers. the trip there is like so damn long can. one hour lehhs. zzzzzzzzzzz. haha. got into grps of 2. im with dar. =) assigned to 4 blocks. what really depressed me is that we cant go put in the letter box. haiz. must go door to door. my legs are aching rite now....
after that went to eat lunch at century square and went home to prepare for the bbq. met dar at je then went to cck. jeremy came to fetch us to his hse. actually its ok la, considering how last yr chalet went, this is brillant. lol. got wet after looking at the grp of guys in the jacuzzi, thanks to?
haha. went hm with dar and karthik...

today was damn slack lar. reached sch early. waited with stella. den the guides started showing up. cant do anything without the radio or whatever u call it. so talk crap and doodle for abit while waiting for mrs loh to turn up with it. went to the wcp mac. eat liao go back sch. watched the sec 2s and 1s perform their POP stuff. didnt get to do anything with ours. the radio is spoiled. -_-"
so overall today is a waste of time la seriously.

and my aching legs are killing me. rawr. i tink this is the wordiest post i evr posted in my life. haha. ok, go do homework liao. not a very nice prospect.

2008-05-30T21:18:00.002+08:00

okayys. duno y i am doing this...but i tink its becoz im sibei bored??? tagged by weixuan....

1. At what age do you want to get married?
-> duno. im still young okay. haven even start dating. -_-"
2. Who is more important to you?
-> eh wad?
3. Who is the person you trust most?
-> myself and dar la. abuhden.
4. Do you have enough confidence?
-> for wad?
5. Do you believe in seeing rainbow after the rain?
-> no. tads crap.
6. Use a word to describe yourself?
-> vulgar. =)
7. Do you believe in eternity love?
-> crap again...
8. Have you broken anyone's heart so much that they were about to commit suicide?
-> summore crap...
9. If you can have a dream come true, what is it?
-> stay young forever and get filthy rich. its counted as one or two?
10. What feeling do you love the most?
-> duno.
11. Do you believe in true love?
-> depends.
12. What feeling do you hate the most?
-> duno.
13. Do you cherish every friendship of yours?
-> obvious rite...dummy.
14. Do you believe in God?
-> y is there so much crap in this?
15. What do you think is the most important thing in you life?
-> too many to list.
16. Who do you hope will always be there for you?
-> dar...
17. Who are your best friend?
-> i dun haf any. and dun intend to get any. and btw, best friends are crap.
18. What do you want most in the world?
-> do u really want me to say?
19. Do you have suicidal thoughts?
-> im not stupid.
20. What would you wish for in your school?
-> air-con everywhere.

Instruction: Delete one question, and then replace it with one of your own. Make sure the total number of questions is 20. Then sabo 5 ppl to do the quiz by tagging their tagboard. This ppl are...
-> no one. i tink this crap shld stop la seriously.

2008-05-28T21:05:00.000+08:00

o.O i changed it. nice? haha. =)

2008-05-28T19:19:00.002+08:00

looking forward to tmr when sinjoo, weixuan and huimin come my hse to do project. sian la the project part. also cant wait for wcp and the movie with karthik. haha! =) whee~

today was pretty much uneventful la. the just one earth seminar was boring like shit la. excuse for the language :) but i did get to miss one hr of the seminar as i got the healthy lifestyle badge to go to in outram park. lasted till one. went to meet weixuan. sry dar! i was freakin late and she had to run in the rain becoz of me. awww. i love you dar. haha.

went to mac to eat lunch and do hw, eat halfway den a piece of weixuan's cabbage or lettuce or whatever la, dropped onto her fone. lol. after that juz continue crapping abt people and stuff. din get much hw done though. lol.

yepp thats all. i want to change my blogskin to lollipop!

2008-05-17T20:23:00.008+08:00

ooo. tis is going to be a long long post haha. i got so many fotos...
went to west coast park with karthik, pon, sinjoo and weixuan b4 going to do our poster thingy. woke up at 6.45 (dun ask me y) den went to clementi bus interchange. i was the first. typical sia. lol.

anyway took 175 to west coast. and a good thing the guys went along. they proved to be veri valuable today.lols! =) played the flying fox(they pushed us along :)) and the pyramid thingy...and i climbed up the pyramid thingy for the 1st time lol. im so not doing that again...even if i have a sense of accomplishment. lol.

and pon caused everyone to be worried becoz his fone went missing halfway...diao. found it in the sand.

today was so funn!!! haha. i got fotos. alot. of. them. happy seeing!

on the flying fox. =)

sinjoo.

karthik sitting in the sand. hes exhausted lol.

pon, weixuan, sinjoo on the pyramid.

sinjoo and weixuan reaching the top.

and they did it!

while i was stuck at the bottom. lol!

and there's karthik who is lower than me. haha.

and i finally reach the top after much struggle. haha.

all our feet.

top view of the duno wad. lol. taken when we were at the top.

me and weixuan. =)

all our feet buried the sand. including one of my slippers. karthik's idea...

pon and karthik

me sinjoo and weixuan.

pon and karthik again. they are debating abt taxis. lol!

our feet again..lol.

pon and kathik bouncing or dancing on the round round thing. lol! they look funny! haha.

and this is my slipper buried in the sand looking very uh decorated. hahas.

pon and karthik in the neoprint booth. duno wad they doing..

and karthik is flying! hahaahaha.

these are the neoprints...

in the lib doing posters on the second flr.....until the stoopid fat woman chase us to the 4th flr.

and tads all! haha. im going out again tml to vivo...sianzz. and im sunburned. lalalas~

2008-05-07T17:54:00.003+08:00

okay. today are juz some fotos. im too tired to type. and most of these fotos are outdated lol.

tads my necklace. same as dar's ... =)

tads me and my sis. when i am studying for CH...haha.

and tads mii! i was bored when studying for geog, den i go take my sis's sunglasses. haha. i look stupid...haiz. but i like. lols.

this is seriously long ago. before the choir performance in kfc...

in class. i look sleepy and girly. lols. i dun like the girly part. lols.

okay tads all folks. update summore later.

2008-05-03T10:43:00.002+08:00

booo. im sleepy.
and yea, im officially mugging for my geog.its veri de stress you noe. lols. i spent my time on the CH until wan to die liao. den the dumb paper cum out so freaking pissed. waste my time sia.
-_-".
anw, after amaths ytd, which is freakin hard btw, went to imm wid weixuan, pon, and nicol. summore take cab can lol. each person 80 cents. haha. walked aimlessly for some time den eat lunch. tad is a very expensive meal lols. coz i go and choose scallop la mian. diao, at 1st wan eat beef de, but i complied to dar. and there goes my money. lol.
pon and nicol were being stoopid, laughing abt duno wad.sianz. den after tad go arnd imm wid ppl looking at us like we pon sch liddat. haha. coz its damn early lor. arnd 10 liddat.

ooh, and we saw alot of cssians hehe. gwendeline dumb la she, saying wad blah shit. ok im crapping. sry la. haha. feeling damn paiseh de can.

after more aimless walking, we go home, left dar at the shuttle bus there. haha. she veri ke lian, have to wait there alone coz the 3 of us live arnd the same place. when walking on the path the 2 of them gang up trick me and push me off the path. shit them la lols. and they started doing drills. i mean like, what the eff.

went home and talk on the fone wid dar, who is still stuck at the shuttle bus place. haha. we talked for one hr! on whole hr! lols. i nvr talk tad long before...at least i tink so. lol.

okay im going back to mugging my geog. sian la. still got phys, emath, chem. haiz. tis is going to be a long wkend.

2008-04-26T07:20:00.002+08:00

aw shucks,believe im saying this: but i kinda miss 2/2. the feeling of chaos...

2008-04-26T06:33:00.002+08:00

its amazing right? i woke up so freaking early in the morning...on a SATURDAY!!! lol! im crapping, as usual. but i got reason de. im such a good student okay..i woke up to study! and i end up posting on my blog. hehe. i got distracted mah...

my ma woke up slightly later and saw me and got a scare can...lol. den she was pissed off with me because i din open the windows...that is like, so random can?

anws...back to my notes.

2008-04-25T21:17:00.002+08:00

rawr..i wan to die of stress liao..sobx.
the teachers have no consience okay...putting history and social studies on the same freaking day.lol. and i still haven study yet.damnnit.

and theres two stoopid sec ones on the bus today tad makes me want to kill them. i was just standing there and one of them just tapped me on the shoulder. and they just talk among themselves like nth happend like that. i wanted to swear, but decided not to. y? coz the ppl on the bus might think im a vulgar girl, which i am, but dun like other ppl to have a bad image on me. haha. and the sec ones might cry ya noe. lol. they are not influenced yet, i dun wan to be the one who does it. im not even related to them okay...

and im so not in a mood for studying. im watching tv now...haha.

2008-04-20T15:17:00.003+08:00

heyys people. im back after a longg longg breeeaak. lols. i was stressed ok? and busy too hahas.
ytd went back to school for CH remedial or lesson.wadeva lah. nearly fell asleep sia. -_-III anws, went to popular later to buy some stuff but din buy coz found out no money liao. very broke lately...sianzzz.

today went swimming. swam for an hour pluss. very good way of destressing. lol. tink i needed that swim. why? for plenty of reasons. first there's napfa tml. sure fail so dun wanna tok abt it. den theres emath and amath test. haven study lol. tues got chem test and physics quiz. im dead. wed is doomsday. nid to hand in chi hw. which i got absolutely no idea what its toking abt. so im in double trouble. any idea how stressful this is?! rawrrr.

and im pissed off with someone. this is SO nt good for my health...my lifespan just shortened 10 to 15 yrs. nt really sure how many. im not a fortune teller ya know?

haiz. i wanna get all this over and done with. going to transform into a nerd for the nxt five hrs. see you...if i survived this 5 hrs.

2008-02-29T19:45:00.002+08:00

today was hilarious. serious. and yesterday was so fun.haha.

lets talk abt yesterday bah.
met dar at 5pm.went to take neoprints.will update pics nxt time. meet up wid xianyu and yimeng, den go eat dinner at kfc. saw alot of css ppl. took mrt to raffles place den walk to victoria concert hall. took pics that i will update nxt time.haha. lazy mah. anw, its an old old building...
to my surprise, nicol ong and company were just sitting in front of me la. and for the 1st time he look shuai la. too bad he kena caught for his hair today den had to cut it off. haha. took summore pics during the interval and after the concert. its veri nice...

today was hilarious like i said. laugh alot. laugh during physics, pe, and guides. today took over marching. the sec3s nid to command the others. so fun lar. i took verlyn, and at some point, i turned around and saw ms faith. noe wad i did? i jumped like abt a foot back and go "ughh!" omg, the nxt thing i noe i was laughing and verlyn and ms faith were like laughing along, and laugh until got stitch la. haha.

ohwell.

2008-02-16T20:10:00.000+08:00

i juz wan to be dead...sibei sian can??

2008-02-16T14:25:00.002+08:00

righto. back to update after a few weeks of silence. cant really rmb the things that happen tis week. juz a brief SUMMARY will do...omfg.i mentioned english stuff. going bonkers i think. anw, lets just start before i conk out.
its valentine's week. so lets start on valentine's day bah. dun really celebrate but for the sake of dar, went to get her chocolates. and for the first day in my 14 yrs, i got valentine's day presents. lol. went to take neoprints wid dar to commerate the 1st valentine's day we celebrated together. will update pics nxt time. lazy now.
tads thursday. yesterday(fri) ran 2.4km. like very out of shape. heh. supposed to run 12min++. in the end tink around 15++？ duno la. very pissed off right now. summore i got muscle ache. damn. must be really off-form...
trying to catch up wid hw tis wkend but its like impossible. going out later for dinner, so tads a precious waste of time. im not trying to be a guai kia ok, but cant ignore tad mountain on my table...

2008-02-06T17:03:00.000+08:00

oooo. im back!!! haha.
hmm, today was not bad la, since my chi teacher din cum..we spent the whole lesson playing uno.lol. the concert was damn freaking boring k. i could doze off la. ohya, when the mt department was throwing the sweets, one fucking hard one landed on my head fucking hard. kaobei. its like trying to create a hole on my head la. damn pissed off...
after tad is the fancy drill thingy, and its like not very shunli. i commit alot of mistakes, paiseh ppl. im very very very sorry. oh, and i din get to go pri school. coz its like very late le.

went to imm to look for dar they all. shopped till want to die liao. and me and weixuan were sitting at a shop that sells clothes the bar there. we look seriously emo la. and its damn pathetic. lol. summore dunno 4 wad reason we started talking about when we reaches 40, and how teenagers will look at us like how we look at aunties now. i tell u ,the thought is so freaking horrible! im like damn depressed juz now. finally went to eat ice-cream den go home.

yepp, thats concludes my day. lol. and guys, tag more will ya.

2008-02-01T17:31:00.000+08:00

juz changed my blogskin and supposed to be updating but nid to go 4 early dinner. so just a quick recap.
today mr gerald nvr come and damn shiok ok...we were supposed to do some work but onli thos guai kia do la. the rest of us was doing the cny thingy. i was doing the firecracker. hehe. its damn freaking long lor. haha. its around 872 cans total i think.
after geo is amaths. was stuck at the simutaneous equation test. tink fail le. haiz. cant wait 4 my bday so i can get chocolate from ms chua.lol.
and the thing i have been the whole day came. sianz. i fail the napfa test la. fail the inclined pull up and the shuttle run. kaobei la. does anyone noe how to train for these including standing broad jump?? and i dun mean leon ok. lol.

im getting strangled by the amt of hw waiting on my table la. i mean, i dun understand a single thing that mdm quek was toking abt so how the bloody hell am i supposed to do my hw?

oh well, wish me luck ppl. i dun wan go 4 fancy drill.

2008-01-26T16:57:00.000+08:00

im back!!! after so long le..
hahaz. beginning to love my class more and more:) jiayouz.
hoping not to get chosen to go to the pahang UG camp at the moment..lols. chickening out is the choice i chose lol. erm..nth to write abt at the moment..
maybe will cum bk at night.

2007-11-22T20:22:00.000+08:00

EWWWW. this sucks. restricted to going out onli once till 14th dec. what type of stupid rule is this. and have to sweep the whole house EVERYDAY. whew. and iron the clothes every few days. haiz. all because my mom went to china to accompany my dad for a month. this SUCKS.

okay. in a bad mood. nevermind.

LAST FRIDAY.
went for class chalet. turn out to be a flop. out of 30+, only 10+ shows up. pathetic. not the type of chalet i expected. and ppl hu are NOT IN OUR CLASS went for OUR CLASS CHALET. and more non 2/2 ppl arrived afterwards. and went starving during the bbq. only ate a stick of satay. seriously pathetic. ppl start smoking and getting drunk with the beer they bought with them. glad to be rid of tad place.

LAST SATURDAY.
thought abt going back 4 the chalet. but heng nvr. cause they check out tad day. spend the day slacking.

LAST SUNDAY.
forgotton. lols.

MONDAY,TUESDAY,WEDNESDAY.
mon and tues nth. forgotton. wed watched amazing race. the blondes are bitches.

TODAY.
went for guides. spent 1.5 hrs waiting for mrs loh. waste of time. went home fuming.

2007-11-11T12:14:00.000+08:00

ehh. no time to update last time so updating now..
went out wid weixuan last wed, went to junction8 den vivo. took neoprints lol.

ate mos burger for lunch. spent almost half the day in the damn mrt. stayed outdoors at the 3rd floor of vivo. got a slight tan, although not much diff since i was already tanned abit. lol. anyway, went hm soon afterwards. haiz. so damn pissed. din get anything 4 myself. LOL!!!

found out going to class 3/3 nxt yr. in same class wid dar. pissed off becoz in same class wid xianyu. DAMN. SHIT. anyway overall still okay la. argh. shit her.

trying to persuade my ma to let me go out on the 14th. haiz.

oni a few things to rejoice abt in the WHOLE of this holiday:

1.class chalet.

2.going on the cruise on the 16th dec.

3.the possibly 14th

4.youtube. lol.

anyway, the fotos we took at vivo are all here.

2007-10-31T14:40:00.000+08:00

feeling sian. nth to do.
youtube and maple out of bounds..
still nid to do housework. wtf.

2007-10-30T16:10:00.000+08:00

juz slacking around. haiz. nth to do. cant watch youtube oso dun feel like switching on tv..
juz listening to music and playing minesweeper.lol. and after tis bathing den do homework. sian..
cant wait to go out. any kind soul help me do homework??? dying of boredom le..
update later.

2007-10-23T20:18:00.000+08:00

I AM BACK!!!muahahaha... :)
damn shiok lorhss. haha. exams over, results out, choose course...
finally end of yr le...3 more days...
but also sad la. seperate class le. haiz. will miss tis yr de.
anyway, lookin 4ward to going out and watching youtube...lol.
cant do it becoz sisters got bloody exams...oh and finally no more chairman duties!!! WOOHOO~ :P

2007-09-21T21:08:00.000+08:00

hmm.this is my 22nd post.lols.noe its like damn little la.wanted to update more but no time.serious.today was like shit.home econs went like omg,dun even want to tink about it.the dish like i said was like shit.den waited in class for girl guides to start.slept like a pig.lol.anyway,guides was damn boring.haiz.tml going vivo to carry lantern or wadeva shit lar.sianzzz.dun feel like doing hw.and today's lit test fail for sure.feeling damn emo and empty.

held a short conversation with the 'he' today..its like on cloud nine..although it would be foolish to show it..
wish it could happen more and for a longer period..tads all i ever wanted..

2007-09-13T20:42:00.000+08:00

I JUZ WANNA SCREAM MY LUNGS OUT...

would he ever glance in my direction? or would he ignore my presence like i did his, but deliberately? i just cant look at him, for fear of being unable to tear my glance away...

2007-09-05T18:58:00.000+08:00

veri long nvr update le..hahax.so now i update le lorhss.lol.

hmm. on friday 31st August, change my fone!!! yesss! finally lor...waited like 2 yrs for that deeply touching moment..lol. :)

went bk pri school. yay! oh, and mrs tan got pregnant! OMG! hehex.

saturday sunday nth lar...xcept i keep on tinkering with my fone...lol.

monday went to lib with nicol, cheean, coco and weixuan-dar to dicuss sook shing thingy...oh, and zi lian with dar 4 awhile! lol.

tads the nicest foto we took...haha.

ate pasta 4 lunch, took neoprints! yay! cant resist myself mah...

tuesday was boring like siao...did some hw and my desk look like shit larh...

my masterpiece

today went to sku for history lesson, boring till wan to doze off. nvm. si bei sian lar..
went on bus 143 with dar to jec for lunch, eat at mac and do homec proj and hw at mac oso..

our homework!!!

me and dar on 143

dar acting shy...lol. c tad on her hand?? its"i <3 hn!!!" :)

2007-08-25T14:11:00.000+08:00

so happy!!! hahas...being the birthday girl is such a nice feeling...l0l.

went to swensen for dinner. man, i was like so damn full lar. and i even manage to polish off my sis and cousin's plates! hehe..
den my cousin bought me shoes from converse!!! omg. so nice! its black...
eat the cake at home....feel like bursting...
oh, i took fotos!!! yay!!! (:

my half-finished cake...(:

my pa's cake...he in china...

my papa!

my cousin emily gift...

its contents... (:

oh and she oso gave me a bag! the hair looks juz like mine...(:

my cousin christopher gave me tis! nt the box lar...

its the shoes! so nice! luv it! yay:)

and this is from sinjoo! so cuteeee!

the pouch is from valerie and eunice, the bear bear is from stella!

this cap is from my younger sis!

this bag is from my ma!

oh, and i injure meself! yay! snoopy plaster!

anyway, i lurve tad day! <3>

2007-08-22T18:05:00.000+08:00

nth to really blog abt larh...
but i very excited! haha! =) tml my b'dae! wohoo! can spend my birthday money le! hah! dar, u r soooo dead! im going to get myself a nike bottle...lol.
going swensen(my choice (: ) for dinner tml! muahahaha...
anyway... enuf for the birthday thingy...
the maths com test soooo damn hard larhs... fail ding le... sobz. no time to finish! shit the cher.

TAG REPLIES!!! (:
joey: how do i relink when i dun noe ur url??? LOL!
stella: sorry sorry! i thout i did...nvm. gimme ur url again!

2007-08-19T17:10:00.000+08:00

sobz...arghh!!! my bag!!! it got dirty!....wahhh! =(
well, we report to sku to clean up the pandan river area. after tad me and weixuan dar and huimin and yimeng went to jec. raining so heavy tad my shoes and socks got wet. we bought cheap cheap slippers at watsons 4 $3! lol. change oreadi den went to eat mac. met gwen, hafizah, nadia, nicol,cheean. went to take neoprint wif dar oni! veri nice! i l0ve it! lol.
anyway...juz as we went towards je onterchange, i slipped and fell on my butt wif tad cheap cheap slippers! and i thout nvm lar...but i realised my bag oso kena! summore its white! sobzz!!!

2007-08-10T22:13:00.001+08:00

yay! got my new wallet today!!! ty for the ppl hu haf chip in. chao gan xie de. =) lols. okay lets start from the beginning.

arrived at je intechange first.after tad weixuan and her di den nicol...
went to take neoprints. (so damn nice). took mrt to raffles. saw hafizah and charmaine on the platform. and we alight at the wrong stop! went up and down the escalator abt 4 times den took the mrt to city hall. ate lunch and went to search 4 the roxy shop. went to every corner and still cant find it. in the end, it was juz beside the 1st shop we see. fyi, its billabong. pissed off. after tad went to vivo. didnt do much shopping though. went to the third level outdoors. there's shallow pools and u can actually go inside them. reluctant at first but cant resist. lol. anyway, veri fun larhs. =) took pics, become crazy and sang the sku song at the top of our voice and even record it down. haha. the ppl were all staring at us.lol !!!
these are the pics!
the neoprints....

nicol and weixuan's di eating lunch...

our hands in the pool...

me and weixuan dar...l0ve tis foto!

the 3 of us together....sitting.

okay...i look like crazy...lol.

okay...tads all. yay! today rawks! =)

2007-08-07T20:29:00.000+08:00

ohmygod!!! im so excited!!! tml is ndp!!! =)

hahazz...so fun lorhs...and nicol...sooo SORRY u cant go!!! okay..being sarcastic here...lols.

and even better, a long wkend waiting at the end of it...*sighs* still got so long...

topping it all up, no hw!! oh yea! teachers wansui! :)

oh, and friday going out! yes!!been wantin to get out of the hse...

anyway...

jiayouz 4 all the ndp ppl!!

2007-08-01T16:44:00.000+08:00

hmm. nth to blog abt these few days. veri sianx.
anyway, im sorry dar, u gt my flu. l0l. sorrysorry. hehex.

i was so sick for the past two days. sniffing and sneezing and coughing. and i got constipation yesterday. clutching me stomach as i walked...
good thing i nvr went 4 guides yesterday, else i would be lying now in the hospital lorhss. =) and my nose was, once again, red as a tomato. even sinjoo say my eyes looked like those of a vampire.

anyway, training hard for ndp. after every training is torture. why? have to drag my feet bk home. sianzzz. look out for me kaess? directly nxt to ncc the column. the middle one. :) but dun tink can c me too well. coz of tad pinic hat. haha.

im seriously stressed out. chairman duties, homework, lessons...
getting harder harder, dun understand most of the time, spend the time dozing off...

dun tink i can get my scholarship tis yr, the way im going. haiz. looking forward to getting my $500. sobz.

anyway, theres teacher's day to look forward to. yay! going bk to peitong. see mrs tan ! whoohoo! =)
okay. tads a bit far. nvm. got nxt friday! 10th august! going raffles place! getting my b'day present! yippee! :)

byebye. going to do my hmwrk le.

2007-07-27T19:53:00.000+08:00

sianzz...so bored. especially wad happened today.
1st is tad literature test. so damn hard sia. dunno how to do juz anyhow sribble sumting. den is tad homec test. harder den lit. lol. seriously, test dominated today's lessons.
den after maths the sci cher came in and say mus read 197 and 198 for the comtest. den i thout tad bringing back the whole stinking textbk home is seriously not worth it as it is 2 page nia. guess wad i did? i juz tore tad piece of paper out of the textbook. haha. my ma's gonna kill me. lol. hey. lugging the heavy textbk with the thick file is not easy okay. especially if standing on the bus for abt 30 mins. i tell u, it will turn my arms into jelly.

the ndp was okay larhss.better den previous session.
tads all.

2007-07-23T19:20:00.000+08:00

yays! me and weixuan are now officially dars! <3>

anyway. after sku went to imm for lunch and some shopping. erm, there is me, my weixuan-dar, nicol, jacky, kenneth(a bad choice),coco, huimin and yimeng. ate lunch at mac. 1st went to mini toons. saw a veri nice bag! i want! den went to daiso. bought some plastic bags. they spent ages at the snacks section. gawd. i was like, can we move on? and they were like, ignoring me! gd thing weixuan dar nvr like that. hehe. and after somemore aimless wandering we went home. but not before we took pics of me and my dar!

okay. i noe my eyes are tiny...but. hey. i cant help it.juz happen to blink at tad time...

took this wif weixuan-dar fone...

okay. tink tads all. i l0ve u dar...lol!! (dont worry, im nt les)

2007-07-20T20:13:00.000+08:00

hmm. im so stressed.*sobx*.nvm. so this week review:
monday: nth much.

tueday: ndp training. gawd. i like become sunburn lorhs.lol. but veri fun. =)

wednesday: miss the racial harmony concert to go sci centre.did some experiments, but like all fail sia. den after dismissal went to search for the mirror maze, but the staff said dun haf le. so sad. and i dun noe wad came over me larhs, but i walk home from sci centre. walk till my legs like turn into jelly.lol.

thursday: hmm. tink forget liaos. lol. erm...oh yeah! hehe. went to pandan primary for buddy reading. my buddy is sooo cute. her name is hazwani. she was a bit shyshy at the 1st session. but she was like pouring out story after story after tad. lol. nice little girl.

today: got the fire drill thingy. and after assembling the upper sec was cheering and laughing like hell and terrence was so angry lar. and i got no idea wad are they cheering about. anyway. there was another ndp training. was raining so held the rehearsal in the hall. was better than tues one. and mrs loh was like, erm, nvm.lol.

anyway tads all lar.oh. and got tons of homework. shit the chers.spoil my perfect weekend.

2007-07-14T21:27:00.000+08:00

ok. todae is like so damn fun larhhhs.the shooting 4 the cdp project becomes a class outing at the playground. lollx. anyway. we were planning to meet at je interchange at abt 12.30. and after waiting 4 half hr so they decided 2 board the bus. without us(me,coco,pearlyn,yingfeng). sobz. they so heartless. after all, we were like the first to arrive and they left us behind. furious.
but they waited 4 us at the bus stop den we all go to a park. i tink. at first they were like playing soccer and we were playing cards, but after sughan arrive, sum of them started filming.but most of us stil slack around larhhs.
soon after we(nicol,weixuan,jacky,me) wanted to go 4 lunch break and we went to kfc at dunno where.lolx.when we got bk there was nobody xcept for a few. they sae they went eating at dunno where la. den we slack around again till like 5 sumthing? den they sae can go hm le.but didnt la.so early.play around 4 a bit.
we played the 3 people seesaw thing and after a while jianhong joined us. he was like, laughing like crazy and fell of.samuel played medics by pulling jianhong along.lolz.stoopid sia.
den i climbed up sumwhere and nap 4 a while den go hm. funny isnt it?class outing no one wants to go, but cdp project everybody go and it turns out to be a class outing. same difference really.

2007-07-06T20:50:00.000+08:00

man.i was like so sick for the past 2 days.sneezing like siao.haiz.everybody says i look like ruldoph the reindeer.sobz.lol.nvm.

wan to see how i look like wid my red nose?lol! :D

me wid sinjoo.

keke.i look stoopid.nvm.but i veri brave rite?take pic wid my 'red nose'? lol.

hmm.today like veri the boring sia.i almost fell asleep during chinese lor. den literature is oso like taking sleeping pill.homec is okay lar, except our dish completely look like shit.lol. but maths sux.seriously.rafeek nvr cum,so gt relief teacher.but she totally sux like hell.dun understand a single word she saying, and frankly speaking, i wasn't even listening to her.i was busy reading my storybk.lol.

oh and i did i mention i gt selected for the ndp?gawd.hrs and hrs of training again.nt to mention the hot sun.nt tad i mind.i mean, i've been trying all yr to get tanned.lol.

nvm.i gtg.nid ta do my hw.we gt plenty.wanna help me do?any kind person?sobz.

2007-07-04T18:06:00.000+08:00

hmm.nth much today.juz tad today veri..er..how to say?..flustered larh.lol..quoting ms wong.nvm.anyway today juz becoz of the be urself day thingy i run up and down looking for people hu haven paid up yet.its even worse than P.E.lol.

keke.so today after sku went to jec with nicol,coco,sinjoo,weixuan,jasmine,li chung and jacky. eat kfc den went up to take neoprint.damn funny larh.after each shot we screamed like lunatics.lol.den sinjoo pressed the wrong thing den there wasn't enuf for everybody.but nobody blames sinjoo k, so cheer up babe! :)

these are the neoprints.

the whole thing.

bit blurred.

us decocrating the pics :D

2007-06-15T18:06:00.000+08:00

today todayy...hmm..onli 1 word for it: sianzzz.
y? coz i juz found out wad we haf to bring for the enrolment camp..and i dun haf alot of the freaking stuff. and that my patrol leader nt going 4 the camp so I haf to take over.
shityshit.i hate doing that type of thing.which is btw,giving commands. *sobz*
anyway.went to watch shrek 3 with my family yesterday.tink its a waste of my money.seriously.nt tad its nt nice, its very funny, but its onli 1 and a half hr.oh, and the dronkey babies are so damn cute!!! :)
lookin 4ward to tml. going out with gg frenz.
haiz.still haf about 18+ hours to go...