well hello. im gonna revive this blog. its been a long time since i blogged anything. ohwell lets see how long before i get bored of it again. a disclaimer: this blog is for me to rant. and if anything upsets anybody, its ur own fault for reading it.

2012 has come. im one year older supposedly, but ive ncver wanted to go back to the past as much as i do now. in the past, lets just say things were leas complicated, we were much much closer, we tell everything to each other. now, what a different story. we dun even sms, let aloone talk. meeting you is like striking lottery, because u seem so reluctant to be the friend u once were. so what i really want to ask is, what happened to us? is it i think too much that we are drifting apart when we were once inseperable like a package deal, or are we really becoming strangers we once said we nvr will be. come to think of it, even though we said we are best friends, we dun noe everything there is to know about each other do we? sometimes im envious of what my other friends have with their best friends.

i cant deny that yes we do not have the time anymore to see each other so often, or talk so often, but an sms everynow and then is enough. i may be clingy, but i like to think its because i care abt my friend. everytime im the one to initiate the contact, but the response is lukewarm to the point of cold. then i will back off, because i dun wan to get pissed again in frustration. this happens all the time now. wanna go out, i asked. no, u reply. why not? theres no reply. am i wrong to feel frustrated? here i am trying to make u happy, but in the end i got pissed instead. this is wrong. i mean we are the closest of friends arent we? or was i thinking too much for the past few years again?

if you dun tell me whats wrong, then i cant do anything cant i? ive always given in to your requests, so i really cant see where did i do wrong unless U TELL ME. then we can solve things together. u may think i cant handle u when u get mad, but you din even give me a chance to try. unless u dun want it of course. then our friendship is abit superficial isnt it? supposed to be 同甘共苦 de friends but we dun share the 苦.

if u are reading this, then please tell me what happend and dun blow up at me. again. i really want to go back to how we were in the past instead of u ignoring me and i getting pissed off at u everytime. yes i noe friends will quarrel and argue and whatever, its what keep the friendship alive, but we are kinda extreme dont u think.

well thats enough for now. have to get back to work. blog later tonight.