realised that i haven blog for a long time. haha. been busy with homework. rawr. i dont think i know the definition of fun anymore. not since i've been behind with my schoolwork. such a tragedy...what's life without fun yeahh?

training resumed yesterday for NDP. haiz. even though i wanted to be in the squad, i dont know why i felt so lifeless ytd. maybe its because of....well, i dun wanna say it. makes me sad just thinking of it.

its like im possessed or something. i dont know what im doing, just following blindly out of habit. abit out of sorts. sigh. this sucks. badly. ok, enough of the emo stuff. its the weekend!!! shit. that sounds so....fake.

i need to get going with my school work. i have never been so behind before...im so going to drop right into the bottom of the class. i dont think i can stand that happening to me..its a major self-esteem thing. hurts my pride. so, what can i do? i dun even noe that. all because....